Lost Cause?

[Phantom1994]

Hello everyone,

Today is another day where I feel that life is futile. I worked hard my whole entire life, overcome some really hard things, and all for it to end with me being physically disabled. I have no career, no job, and I have to live off $450 a month.

I feel that I put in all this effort fighting my deppression and anxiety so I could so these jobs but I have nothing to show for it.

I feel that my life is over and there is no one to talk to. All the "assistance" programs are closing because they are over capcity. Everyone seems to blame me or say "I don't know how to help" even though its their job to help me.

I never enjoyed life...because of a traumatic childhood but I thought that when I grew up things would change for me. It just seems more of the same BS it just this time instead of my parents its the world.

I no longer can tell myself that things will get better when they have only gotten progressively worse.

I wonder if I just am no fit to live in this society because I am not a well adjusted adult and that is all people want.

Thanks for listening.

[Ryanlion]

Hello Phantom1994

Your not alone in how you feel. I sometimes wonder was it worth all the effort i put in over the decades only for things to improve by 1% . If that. You are not a lost cause. You had parents like mine who didnt know how to raise a child for happiness, they were probably miserable too. Society doesnt seem to care about us less fortunate ones because society is geared to think of themselves only. There is no money put into healthcare here in UK. I am not sure where you are from but money is short in many countries now. I went private but believe me my psychiatrist soon lost interest in me when none of the usual medications worked. It can be a cruel world now. I've done self help, read alot,tried anything to ease my depression and anxiety. Its like one step forward and two back.

I am trying acupuncture but its the last thing i try. I wish i could give you hope , i know its out there somewhere. There are 12step groups for people who were raised badly which may throw some light on your problems. I am trying to Let Go and Let God, maybe she/he will come through one day. Remember there are many out there like yourself . Try to make friends if you can, compsny can help alot.

[RomanMax]

Hold on my friend. I completely and TOTALLY understand and get where you are coming from. I'm going through it now trust. But please give God a try. I can't say what tomorrow holds for any of us but if God didn't have something for us we wouldn't be here. I'm at the end of my rope as well but we still have to hold on. I'm here to listen.