Hi! Hope u r well

[OneMusicFan]

Trying . Want to be dead

[Lifesearching]

I’m sending you a prayer🙏🏽💜your life is worth it even if it takes moment by moment, hour by hour. I wish you inner peace and healing. I hope that your day has many unexpected blessings wherever you go.

[OneMusicFan in reply to Lifesearching]

Thank you.Your thoughts are appreciated. I'm still here..

[Lifesearching in reply to OneMusicFan]

🙏🏽💜💜💜

[OneMusicFan in reply to Lifesearching]

❤️

[Mtndogg12]

I know…. these thoughts are over whelming. Sending you hugs, you’re not alone.

[OneMusicFan in reply to Mtndogg12]

Thank you

[Gramas]

Same here but I guess we have to go on. One positive aspect of our lives is that we have this forum where we can connect with each other when things get bad. Know you are not alone. Reach out anytime.

[OneMusicFan in reply to Gramas]

Thanks. I appreciate your kind words.I don't like being so whiny. Don't like myself anymore. Why have I let this happen? Like I'm standing on the sidelines watching my life pass by.

Feels like my soundtrack is stuck on repeat & so negative.

Maybe my struggle can help someone else.

Got any other suggestions on where I can vent? No need to burn out this crowd with my s*#¥§!

Thanks again for helping me process. Hiding is not helping

[Gramas]

I know exactly how you feel. It also seems like life is just passing me by with me being nothing more than a bystander. With old age I don’t feel relevant or involved anymore, instead just invisible to the outside world.

As far as what helps, I’m not sure. Sometimes its as simple as doing something around the house even if its cleaning. I’ve also done some volunteering and that seems to help somewhat. Plus I’ll do or go anywhere anyone asks me to which occupies my mind for a while but I still don’t feel seen or heard.

I did try an online zoom support group but didn’t feel comfortable enough to continue. Although depressed all these people had a lot of things going on in their life and I really had nothing to contribute. It might be worth a try though.

Anytime you need to vent feel free to message me if you don’t feel like sharing it all in the forum.

[ALLSTAR44 in reply to Gramas]

Hello Gramas! You do matter! I know it can be hard! Hope you have a good day!

[Gramas in reply to ALLSTAR44]

Thank you.

[ALLSTAR44]

I have major depressive disorder don't take medication now been off for 2 years somedays I don't want to be alive this moment is good but it changes. Everybody hang in there. I've been. Sucidial before and have been in the hospital 2. It can be hard but we all can do it.