I feel like I'm just killing time til I die.I don't enjoy anything.
I don't find anything fun.
I have no hopes for the future.
I have to fake every single smile.
I'm exhausted.
I'm tired of being like this, but nothing helps.
I've tried so many things that I've had 2 doctors tell me they can't help me anymore.
The only reason I'm still here is because of my dog. He wouldn't understand why I never came home.
I am sorry you are struggling? What meds have you tried ? Have you dinner gene testing yet ? Spike to a counselor ? KNOW you are not ALONE
Gene testing? I can't say I've heard of doing that for depression. What's it do?I've had therapists and counselors in the past but I don't have one currently.
As for meds it's too many to list here.
You sound like me now. only I have a cat. the shrink I have now just told me she can't fix me.. I think about the end alot.
It's really hard when someone who claims to be a professional just gives up on you.
I feel exactly like you do. My doctor told me the same thing…and I’ve seen many! Seems like I’ve tried every med out there. They seem to work for a while and then I’m right back where I started. I’ve tried to end the pain a couple of times years ago and swore I would never do that again to my children. But sometimes it seems like the only way out! Also, I could never could do that to my dog. He would be lost without me! It’s my boy friends birthday and I feel like a piece of crap. What a great girlfriend to be crying all day. People will be over later and he will have to explain why I can’t get out of the bedroom. How do you make the pain go away??
I think we all suffer, some to lesser or greater degree. You don't need advice - you need a hug & to be told you are loved just the way you are. You have a dog! You have children! You even have a boyfriend! Some very small inner part of you is grateful they are in your life. Whatever you think you are good at doing (anything!), remind yourself. I think it's ok to cry tho not very elegant a scene!
What a wonderful response. Your words touched my pain and hurt , thank you. Rufus07 hold on, thank you for sharing!!
I'm sorry that you're dealing with this too. I wouldn't wish this on anyone.Is your boyfriend at least supportive?
He is supportive but I’m sure there are times he gets tired of it.
I no longer like or have any desire to do the things we used to do. So basically, he’s single.
I feel these ways as well absolutely. I am helpless and that is the worst place to be.
Major Depression is not a Gift
How do I live 
waves of sadness
finally got a psychiatrist after 6 months of waiting
