Had my medical essay to fill in last month which i did.. Took me what seemed like forever, but answered truthfully. The last time i filled it in i had to go and see someone face to face.. I recieved a letter from the jobcentre plus this morning awarding me esa... I did not think the job centre and the medical place ( where i had to send the form back too were connected??? ) Just wondering is that it now? or can the Medical place over ride the decision? Its bad enough coping with Lupus without all the sodding paperwork attached !! Feeling really down and grumpy and i could cry with feeling so fed up all the time :-((((( Sometimes wonder whats the bloody point. Everyday is getting harder to get through... close my eyes and not wake up seems a better option right now... Just having a moan... sorry !!!