I start my hydroxychloroquine in middle of October once eye consultant has checked my eyes. Steroid injection wore off last week ( it was my first one when diagnosed 19 August). Been plodding along since then.
Today been to gp, given antibiotics for abscess. Plus given fluoxetine as I'm so low, keep crying, can't bare crowds of people or metro trains (claustrophobia going crackers ) , I dont want to spend time with people, push my husband away, feel deeply sad, shaky and dizzy when leave house. I can't bare feeling like this. I told him I pray to not wake up in the morning, or I hope a car knocks me over as I just don't want to be here anymore. Then I think of my family and I feel so guilty for feeling that way.
Will this ever improve, will I ever feel like me, Rachel, ever again?????