I don't know how people can go on like this for years! I have been dealing with my worst part of this dreaded disease for about two months and feel like I am going crazy! My brain doesn't want to co-operate with my body and I do not even feel like myself. I can't think straight and can't do more than one thing at a time now and burn food because I try to do two things at once. I feel like I am moving in slow motion. I get cranky with my family and want to be left alone just to crawl up in the bed and sleep! The only time I am not hurting is when I sleep and even that is hard to get. My head feels like it wants to explode and pain reliever does not work much. My wrists hurt bad and my neck and shoulders and body ache. I do not even have as many problems as some people here but I am scared to get official diagnosis from rheumatologist and I do not want to have to be dependent on so many drugs to help control my body! I never have liked to even take medicine for a cold and now have to be putting three different drops in my eye. I am afraid they will find all kinds of things wrong with me and will then need to be seeing so many doctors all wanting to give me tons of pills. I am sorry to make anyone feel bad when I should be helping encourage instead of complaining. I have all these things going on and reading a lot more that can happen and I getting really scared. Trying to stay positive and keep the faith but just letting things get to me now..