Am l in denial as when l am on a good few days, l think every time. l have got it under control and l am so sure this time l am doing everything right. Then it kicks back in the feeling of being so ill, so exhausted and question myself each time where l must have gone wrong. When will my mind except that this is the way things are now, and stop thinking l have cured myself every time l feel well, If only l could except my condition sle, l would not get so depressed when l get so poorly. Sorry l needed to have a moan just been through the most awful 2 weeks of the most horrid flare up, just had to let off steam. Thanks for listening.Hope everyonel is doing well.