Today I. Having a hard day. I am part of the Hugh's syndrome group (because I have APS and have had so many blood clots in my lung). I am part of the asthma group on here because I have been told I have asthma for the past 7 years. That has now progressed to asthma/COPD. So I joined that community here.
I. Going through what I could call (and have been calling for the past 30 years) a "flare". I am beyond exhausted. By that I mean I just went out to get some groceries and it was a total struggle to walk back to my car. Not too breathless, but a deep down weighted feeling that I just can't do anything or keep my eyes open.
My joints hurt. My ankles, knees, and lower back. My skin hurts , - just the feel of my t-shirt on my upper arms are like steel wool on my skin.
I feel like the start of the flu, but I have been here before and know this isn't a flu I have.
I just don't know what it is. By the time I see my rheumatologist, and get the blood work, I am ok. Nothing shows up. So...maybe I am nuts?
I get nothing clear from my doctor's. The rheumatologist says it is one thing, then the pulmonologist totally shoots it down. Then the GP (who is amazing!) says something...and the pulmonologist says no. Everyone has told me it is something, and when I ask, the most they can agree on is bad luck. 14 pulmonary embolisms is bad luck? As angry and lost as I am, I have to agree. 🙄
I know we are not doctors here, but does this feeling sound even remotely similar to anyone's experience??? 30 years. I haven't gotten a straight answer other than bad luck. Even when I was a month in the ICU at the hospital.
I work in a hospital. Full time. On my feet Monday ay to Friday. Training almost everyday because nursing had high turnover in departments. I have researched my problems, but...I can't figure it out. Everything is so vague. And most importantly, I don't want to fall victim of reading so much in the books and on line that I start thinking every symptom is me! Some fits, some doesn't. And not all the time.
Sorry. I am so sorry. maybe I shouldn't even be putting this out there. It is not like me to be so down. I don't suffer from anxiety - and this isn't it. I am just so...angry.