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[Agara33]

i have decided to stop doing processing work. I have done it with an nlp/healing practitioner for years and that work feels addivtive--because its so powerful, and you feel different afterwards. i am carrying so much-and am so anxious to be clean from it all...and it gave me a sense of power and control-the only tool i could really grasp in these years--but i woke up in pain and agony this morning and told her lets strengthen instead, to realize that this is what i need to be doing...to stop hurling myself forward, and frankly abusing my system in this way....cleaning, processing is a later step...i need ground, strength, sanity, health, support system, abilities, routine....not to hold and run after magic....not bargaining over how far and strong something is and will take me...just life itself, and its time

[BrainIsFull]

It sounds like you reached a point of clarity. I think being flexibel in life and in doing this healing is important. Then we can stop and try something different and give new things a chance.

I often find it hard to know when to make a change bc doing this healing work can be painful and at some times it might be important to go through the pain. But at other times, pain may be a sign to slow down or make a change. 🤷🏼‍♀️

But then there are times when things seem so clear! That can be a refreshing change and a gift! 😃

I wush you success and strength in this new path! 💚

[Agara33 in reply to BrainIsFull]

i turned to this healing work out of complete despair and terror...i didnt know what to do...and got familiar with it, but i have not gone forward, i have been stuck, stuck, looping, and fighting and still very afraid. But the same healer can help me with strengthening...i am actually scared also that i was on one path and did not realize that it was the wrong one...though ive heard others say the same...and letting it go--that extreme powerful work feels healthy, thank you for your support

[BrainIsFull in reply to Agara33]

Like I said, I find this work to be very confusing at times. Sometimes I don't even know if I am improving bc my perceptions can be so skewed at times by anxiety and depression. I have gone down more than one unhelpful path! I have also ended up with more than one unhelpful and/or damaging professional. But at the time I trusted the methods or professionals.

It's trial and error. We're just people trying to find our way.

I have noticed that I have gotten better at recognizing unhelpful or potentially damaging professionals. So I know that I have made some lasting progress. But much if my healing journey is simply slogging my way through. It's messy!

[Agara33 in reply to BrainIsFull]

I can so relate to all you wrote-forwards and backwards…what’s good for a while changes, and all kinds of health professionals…and my goals and expectations also changed, thank you for sharing

[Nathalie99 Partner]

Thank you for sharing your process, Agara.For me it was a mix of both. Sometimes I need to find my ground and strength before I do more processing. Other times I need to do processing to be able to function at all. Finding out what I need is not straightforward, it is a trial and error.

Also, at times it was too much so I had to stop right in the middle of it and recover to be able to do more processing.

It is so powerful that you know what you need...that is a lot and I hope it will help...