Continuous trauma.

[paper-roses]

Happy Easter to Everyone. I wonder, if anyone has had a similar experience to me & I wonder, if anyone knows how to help me. I was rendered unconscious for 21 hours on two occasions. I have a drug allergy alert on my medical records now. In the hope, it will not happen again.

I have problems, since it happened the second time.

It’s the bath. I look at it & it reminds me of a coffin. I can’t sit in a bath anymore, because I feel as if I’m sitting in a coffin.

I have problems with the fridge freezer. It reminds me of my unconscious body laying somewhere. I feel as if my unconscious body was frozen for 21 hours.

I have problems with feeling water on my skin.

It’s hard for me to wash. Water reminds me of pain.

I don’t know how to stop these feelings.

VictimSupport have been very good to me on the phone. But when are all these thoughts of - bath means coffin. Fridge freezer means my unconscious body frozen in time. Water means pain. When is it going to stop?

Thank you for reading all this.

[Marnie22 Volunteer]

Hi. I am sorry you have had such difficult experiences. Have you got a good doctor you could speak with? You might find it useful to look into trauma focused therapy with a therapist with training and experience in that area. That would be my advice. I have experience of EMDR which has been very helpful, it may be that it could help you.

I wish you all the best.

🙂🌸

[paper-roses in reply to Marnie22]

Dear Marnie22, Thank you for your kind help. I’ve received the beginnings of Trauma Stabilisation Toolkit paperwork document, but my nurse hasn’t started me on anything to do with it. I’ve got this strange notion, my nurse finds my experience difficult to cope with. She’s continuously protective towards me. I am very grateful to her. I’m talking to my doctor soon. He’s written that he wishes to try to remove the hospital diagnosis. I really hope, he does soon. I’m speaking to him on Tuesday. If he removes the diagnosis, that would help my plight. Thank you for your thoughtfulness. Best wishes.

[Marnie22 Volunteer in reply to paper-roses]

I do hope you can begin to heal. If you feel up to it, I would be interested to hear how you get on. Take care. 🙂🌸

[Dolphin14 Moderator]

It takes work and time to heal from trauma.

Those triggers need to be worked through.

I know how scary this is. Please know you can reach a place of peace with the trauma.

Best of luck to you

🐬

[paper-roses in reply to Dolphin14]

Dear Dolphin14, Thank you for your reply. There is the trauma, I haven’t mentioned on this site. The first time I was rendered unconscious for 21 hours, they moved my unconscious body to another hospital without my knowledge. I woke up abruptly standing in a doorway looking opposite a Dr. The Parliamentary Ombudsman are investigating the case. The second incident I was rendered unconscious for 21 hours, my unconscious body was moved without my knowledge to another room. There is a hospital investigation. The Parliamentary Ombudsman are waiting for the results. I’ve stopped writing letters of complaint. I’ve found fake documentation in my medical records, I can only report the documents. I can’t do anymore. Thank you for your kind understanding. I do feel completely traumatised & harmed by the nhs. Best wishes. 🦢

[Dolphin14 Moderator in reply to paper-roses]

You have been through a lot.

I recognize the trigger signs as I have those myself.

I also have PTSD

I've worked very hard to gain control over most of my issues.

I do still struggle with some.

You can get there. Don't lose hope

Best wishes to you also

❤️🐬