Overwhelmed by Trauma

[mdwb1026]

I just finished a month of residential treatment for my complex PTSD and some new traumas came to the surface abt a week before I left. I found out I was molested as a child and was sexually abused at 26. The reality of those have come crashing down on me since getting home and between the flashbacks and depression I’m just at the end of my rope. I don’t know how to keep moving forward or if I even have the capacity to keep fighting anymore.

[Nathalie99 Partner]

I'm sorry you have been through so much, mdwb1026.

Lots of different types of trauma are more complex but it's possible to get better.

Finding a therapist or an organization that can help with this specific type of trauma in your area might help find specialized therapist that can really make a difference.

I know the feeling of not having enough energy to fight and when I experience this, I take some quiet time for myself whenever possible to recover energy needed.

You have come so far and maybe just a bit of rest and self compassion can help you fight again.

Sending lots of supportive thoughts...

[ScubaD]

Where you are psychologically is not an easy place to be. It can take a great deal of time to work through but with the right trauma therapist you will.

I am still on my journey and have been in that black hole of despair. I am hoping to help people through their journey because it cannot be done alone.

Go see your doctor for a referral to someone who knows about complex trauma and who is informed about the traumatic effects of child and adult sexual abuse. PODS is excellent in helping and informing survivors of child abuse, not everyone who enquires has dissociation etc.

Be kind and give yourself time, one step at a time to protect yourself. Believe me there is hope for the future even if it seems distant at present.

My very best wishes.

[Beingindependent Volunteer]

I’m sorry that you are overwhelmed and emotionally drained and exhausted.

You won’t always feel the way you do now.

I know how difficult remembering can be.

You need to find what gives you strength, what empowers you so that you will come through the flashbacks, the memories.

Writing in a journal, pulling weeds in the garden, singing, creating art you are an amazing person,

This takes strength, patience, endurance.

But believe me you will come through this and release the flashbacks.

You are not alone, there are so many of us who understand you,

It’s okay to feel, to cry to grieve what was taken

you are going to make it through,

Take care

[Lindyloo53 Volunteer]

It was really important for me when experiencing flashbacks to use the tool of mindfulness and grounding. This kept pulling me back to the present moment.

[HisChild4ever]

I am very sorry you have gone through so much! It is possible to experience healing and wholeness. I recommend talking to a counselor. It is important to get help. You are not alone. There is help available. I hope you do all that is necessary for your healing. I hope you feel much better soon.

[Blue-eyed]

Hi. I’m so sorry you had to go through that. And then to have stuff come up at the end of your treatment when you have to be on your own is probably very frightening. I myself had a hard week of flashbacks and feeling like I don’t have the strength to keep pushing for a better life. And then Saturday night I overdosed on my meds and ended up in the hospital. I don’t think I did it to hurt myself. I just wanted to feel better or not feel anymore.

And now they let me out with condition that I get to a residential treatment program. But I’m afraid to put a hold on my life.

[Blue-eyed]

I noticed that this post is from a bit ago- so I hope you’re in a better and stronger place now. At same time Maybe we can still encourage each other.