Hello again

[HeartoftheTriforce]

How's everyones day treating them? Feel free to message me if you need to vent.

[Nathalie99 Partner]

Hi HeartoftheTriforce,

Welcome to the community.

Had a much needed rest after a very tiring trip.

Hope you are enjoying your weekend.

[wallflower_fairy Major Contributor in reply to Nathalie99]

Hi HeartoftheTriforce and Nathalie,

I hope you're both okay. I hope you're feeling better Nathalie and not pushing yourself too hard.

I am managing as much as I can given my overall situation. I've been very tired and sleeping a lot and haven't been as active on here as I'd like.

I'm working on compiling my old HU post material into a book and making reasonable progress as I have a system of how I'm doing it. It's still taking time though due to exhaustion, etc.

It's covering the time span of September 2013 -September 2015 and is about living wih undiagnosed PTSD while starting and studying at uni (among other stuff).

Finding everything I need is like a peicing a puzzle together as that part of my life is chaotic and not remembered clearly. Right now I'm trying to look for my second year time table just so I can remember the structure of my week and how everything fitted together.

That's my project that's giving me something to focus on, but I am struggling. Xx

[HeartoftheTriforce in reply to wallflower_fairy]

Ive also been working a lot and everytime i hit the bed i fall asleep. i hope all you need does piece together in a way that works. i dont think it has to be perfect tho.

its hard to also know what you have to do and not doing it. it turns into a big cycle of guilt and demotivation

[HeartoftheTriforce in reply to Nathalie99]

my weekend has actually been very relaxing! My lower back has been hurting me a lot today tho

[wallflower_fairy Major Contributor in reply to HeartoftheTriforce]

Thankyou and glad you had a good weekend.

Sorry to hear about your back. There is a YouTube video I watched with simple and doable lower back pain stretches with a man called Dr Rowe. No equipment used apart from a racket ball. The channel is called something like Spine Decompressions Chiropractors and the video in question is called something like Get Rid of Lower Back Stiffness in 30 seconds.

I tried some of the stretches and they seemed to help. 😊

Definitely - I think it's partly the worry about perfection that's slowing me done. So I said to myself I'll try to find the stuff if I can but if I can't find it then that's not going to stop me writing it. Also I have to draw a line somewhere otherwise it could just go on and on with me thinking of new stuff to find to getting in the way of myself.

I definitely hear what you're saying about guilt and lack of motivation too and it's a very common dialogue in this community. It's just about taking one step at a time I think. 🦄 xx