Long to be who I used to be

Three years ago I had a wonderful life. Then trauma happened and destroyed me. I now struggle every day to survive. I see my shrink in a week hoping I can get some drug to take away the constant thoughts of self hatred and wanting to stop all this madness.

[Nathalie99 Partner]

I know trauma changes our identity, hidden.

It's unfortunately how PTSD manifests itself.

It's unbearable and when you are going through it, it's hard to feel that things are going to get better...but they eventually will.

You are going through a lot and need to give yourself time to heal.

I hope your doctor can prescribe something that you find helpful.

Take care...

[Agara33]

A lot of people feel like you do. The contrast between before and after can make it that much harder, and feeling alienated and exiled from your own home and life. Psychiatrist can be pivotal, can really turn things around for some

[SavingGrace Administrator]

Hey there - so sorry for your loss.....

It sounds all too familiar, but you can do great things to ensure you continue to thrive and work yourself out of this, in the meantime.

Routines - surprisingly come high on the list of recovery.... Making one's bed, making breakfast - eating 3 healthy meals a day. Just basic, simple routines that sustain the body and enable it to stay strong and healthy - so that you can fight this weird change.

Learning to continue to relax, in spite of the troubles. Walks in nature, or meditative music, candle lit baths - to give yourself TLC. All so important.

Trauma brings a sense of hopelessness and loss, yet in order to survive and find oneself out of this puzzle and to thrive, even the most simplest and basic things can help.

I neglected and ignored this advice early on, but now realise just how important those steps may be.

Sending you my prayers and blessings and hope xxxxx C

[SavingGrace Administrator in reply to SavingGrace]

PS. Self hatred gets us nowhere fast..... only further despair. I've suffered from guilt and so have a little understanding of this horrible position. I have made it a daily practice to learn to forgive myself, believe in the good in me - to keep on renewing the belief in myself that I once held true. Just because trauma has occurred, does not mean that we should lose our self belief and self-love and care.

Feeling for you and hope you will let us know of your journey more. Much love. x