My mom confronted me tonight about her concerns. Her concerns were about the PTSD symptoms I've been showing since March found her monitoring my sisters text messages- when I confronted my mother she lied to: myself (31-yrs), my sister (26-yrs), and my father (partner to her since they were 12 & 14 yrs old). This ended up being a trigger for me unexpected as I thought the past had been dealt with ((( I was first exposed to trauma as a toddler being molested by her stepfather, the raped in my sleep in college, then pregnant and almost reluctantly leaving a 3 yr emotional abuse nightmare, came home ))) --- but stupid snooping/lying mom trigger, sends me into this dark place I didn't think I would ever return to, it's been a shitty time.
I need to push forward and not let the weight of swaying or convincing my mother to change or be trustworthy or see things from my perspective be the only way. But is this the only way?
She wants to roll her eyes and think the things I say are hogwash.. Excuses.. Laziness, the usual. But I have worked my life to get to where I was a few short months ago before she triggered me into a black hole. Can I explain to her on some shallow surface level that we can work together now that I know how close I am to getting out of this trigger happy home? I'm sure it's not that easy. This post is too long.