I haven't posted in a while. At this point, almost two years later since my symptoms began, i was hoping to be posting about great positive progress, but have made very little.
After some long term traumatic events I started exhibiting severe symptoms of PTSD. Panic attacks, agoraphobia, disassociation, extreme anxiety, severe depression and suicidal ideation, nightmares, and MAJOR sleep issues. The most debilitating symptom was an absolute lack of ability to achieve any kind of sleep. It was so severe for many months that I eventually fell into psychosis from lack of sleep and had to be hospitalized. For a year it felt as though I literally wasn't sleeping at all at night...as months went on i realized I was sleeping to a degree, but so shallowly and so briefly, that it was nothing more than a cat nap.
Here i am about 2 years later and not much has changed....I am able to sleep for a few hours during the night, but it is so shallow and completely non restorative to any degree that it literally feels as though i haven't slept. Some nights i still don't sleep at all.
I am in constant fatigue and pain all over my body...headaches...exhausted all the time...and i am incredibly weak and have lost lots of muscle mass. my digestion and metabolism has changed greatly also. Im 24 years old...i used to be a college athlete...I should not feel like this at my age.
I have been on every sleep medication you can think of including many antipsychotics..antidepressants etc. Nothing has improved my sleep in the slightest. There is one drug my doctor is pursuing for me called Xyrem which promotes deep sleep...but it is highly controlled and most likely won't be passed by insurance.
This is destroying my life...i can barely function...I guess my question is...Has anyone experienced poor sleep to this degree? Is there hope that with time it will revert back to normal restorative sleep? Is there anything i can do to improve things? I see a sleep specialist, psychiatrist, therapist....Should i be looking else where for help? My theory is that there is still some type of hyperarousal during what little sleep i get not allowing me to go deeper...or brain activity during my sleep. I have been pursuing a sleep study for a year now hopefully will have one in the next couple of months...but whatever the sleep study shows, I am still at a loss of how to correct things. I don't want to be stuck like this for the rest of my life...it isn't a life at all -THanks for any insight or response.