I don't know

[peacefulandcalm]

what to do. Ask my father for the help for the home in an email? then triggered into hellish nightmare for a while. Talk to my mother this afternoon about the letter, finish it with her and have her send it? Don't involve him at all and somehow find a decent quiet place and worry about it not being solid, as stable as a home I own and triggering property management companies?

When things are so precarious financially. Just feel so alone, lost and scared.

And sad, as my father is getting older, moving to another state to an independent living. The sadness starting the tears now.

Too much for me. Been falling apart, dissociating.