These last few months have been difficult. I recently left a job where is was totally and completely miserable after being bullied and harassed. In the end management never ceased to amaze me in helping stop it. In fact, they didn't stop it, they just let it happen. I applied for two years at different places in an attempt to get out. It finally happened and I was offered a job. Now I am left to face to after math. I spend almost everyday alone, including the weekends. I don't even bother to get out of bed anymore when I am not working. No one calls or texts me anymore unless they want something. My best friend and I recently had a fall out and I didn't attend her wedding as she failed to include me in anything. As for my work friends, I put together a little gathering at a restaurant as I didn't really get to say goodbye and two people showed up. I feel totally alone. I just don't care anymore. There are days I just wanna give up the fight. Talking to anyone is useless anymore as people I know just run and tell everyone else. Thanks for the support guys. My new job is less stress but my problem is I don't trust anyone. Trust has always been an issue for me after my diagnosis of PTSD.
Feeling done..: These last few months have been... - Heal My PTSD
Feeling done..
Kinali, there are people here who care about you. It's hard when we feel as if we need human contact and we feel so alone. Please reach out to us here. The good thing with it being a worldwide group is were not all asleep at the same time. Do you have any hobbies? I like to colour in but was more thinking of another hobbie I do which is mosaicing. I have to attend a group for this and it's one way I get human contact. I haven't made friends in the group, they're very friendly people but I have to drive over 35ks to the group so not so local that I can ask people to my home for a cuppa. Is there anything local to where you are. I don't attend church but there is a church where I live that does a lunch meal once a week so I'm going to start going so I can meet people who live locally. Sometime s we have to push ourselves to attend something locally just for human contact. Don't give up, we do care about you.
The isolation, rejection and abandonment are some of THE HARDEST things to deal with. I'm right there with you. Remember to breathe, tap, rock, whatever you need to comfort and soothe yourself. You are still so important.
Trust is a issue with me also but I have learned to trust myself. My thoughts my actions. I have had to learn to take people and hold on to what they are willing to give and not what I want. Everyone has three sides. The one the world sees, the one loved ones sees and the one inside. I don't expect to see the last two. As for the first one yep if that's what you want the world to see. I can trust that's what you want the world to see. I just make sure that is the one they see too. Maybe after time we can get to the second one. The third one is me I have to admit. The day my mom passed was the last time anyone got to see that one!
Lindyloo53- I am not sure if there are any of those groups around me or not. Although I would like to meet some people close by, I do have to say I am weary of that just because I do know a lot of people and I live in a cluster of towns that are very small. When I say small, I mean 10,000 or less people. I used to be so outgoing but not so much anymore. I had a therapist recommend that I be weary of people. Step back and watch them for a bit before I do anything with them.
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Seriously lost now
Feeling lonely
Insomnia
so often
Confused. 
Two a.m. more of the same --I guess I better add a TRIGGER WARNING
Need your help
Alone
Isolated
