I left my home 2 months ago and am styling with other family members. Ithe took me many years to get to this point.
My husband had been hurtful to me for a long time. He has triggered me repeatedly. I really believe he has set back my recovery. I just have been letting him take the wheel for so long because he is controlling and his behavior made it harder to trust myself. I always felt abandoned by him. Heven also had no compassion for my ptsd struggles. He once said, "You are not over it yet? That happened 15 years ago." He does not get it and does not want to. Yet since I love him I miss him and findo it to be the most didifficult thing in the world to legally seperated or divorce. I have a lot of fears about the future. It us nearly paralyzing
Not sure what to do. I am scared and afraid I will always be alone. I see and talk to my therapist 3 times a month. One hour a week is not enough.
Any advice? Thoughts or stories?