Needing to vent

[Psalms-46]

I am a person who normally holds everything within, but I don't want to live like this anymore. I can handle the visual flashbacks, but my body is tormented with countless body triggers during the day and I normally have nightmares or night time panick attacks nightly. It's relentless. I haven't cut in years, but I found myself putting a knife to my skin. Thankfully, I was able to put the knife down and not cut, but that was the closest that I've come in years to harming myself.

Thanks, I just needed a moment to be real😓

[AnyaC]

((((hugs)))) <3

[GRUMPYA]

We understand on here, many of us know exactly what you mean and know how hard life feels. Well done on putting that knife away. I hope those urges fade or that you can distract yourself when you need to.

Safe hugs Xxx

[itsmytime]

Thank you for sharing! I think it makes everyone feel better just writing on here and letting it all out. This is a safe place to do that and I know for me I kind of depend on it. Being real is the only way to really heal. Keeping it in isn't healthy... I am the same way though. One night I just said I need to change and let this all out because what I had been doing was just not working anymore. You should feel proud of yourself for taking the first step of the rest of the life you want to live!

[Psalms-46 in reply to itsmytime]

Thank you😊

[ubsparkles]

Hi Psalms-46 Great sharing & notice you're not alone.

During my most intensive healing, I discovered my anger built up led me not only to panic but to explode-say & do the most foolish things, I really didn't mean. So it was my project to release little by little from the pressure cooker! I started journaling first things that came to mind, like taking 1 flashback at a time and continued on that 1 subject until I could think or talk about it and not hurt anymore. This was in addition to professional therapy & trusting groups. Take care & keep momentum going!

[Psalms-46 in reply to ubsparkles]

Thank you😊