I am a person who normally holds everything within, but I don't want to live like this anymore. I can handle the visual flashbacks, but my body is tormented with countless body triggers during the day and I normally have nightmares or night time panick attacks nightly. It's relentless. I haven't cut in years, but I found myself putting a knife to my skin. Thankfully, I was able to put the knife down and not cut, but that was the closest that I've come in years to harming myself.
Thanks, I just needed a moment to be real😓