Not sure how many posters here have been in a similar position with their abusers.
One in particular , the main one, was always one to make promises they wouldn't keep.
Usually when I was in a position most vulnerable , this person would often offer to help , for example financially , only to withold that help when the time came .
& I'm sure plenty of people growing up in alcoholic families have had perhaps a similar scenario unfold , un nurturing parents quick to dispense punishment , but slow to give what parents should .
I question why my parents had me . Why 2 sick , disturbed & twisted people would bring a child into this world only to deprive that child the basics needed for that child to function & develop like normal .
Why people can't see past themselves to the point where a child's suffering , was somehow seen as the fault of the child ?
& in adulthood I can truly see the cancer for what they are , & finally no longer feel guilty for eradicating them & cutting them out (of my life) .