I decided to take the next step in recovery. This is huge. I decided to reach out and make a friend. This is the hardest things I've done in a few years since the trauma. I was standing in a store and the pangs of loneliness hit like never before. I stood there and said I need a friend. The trauma wiped out my circle of "friends" and I didn't have the capacity to build friendships. My therapist suggested that I make one and I was like "no way." Today was the day I decided to reach out to a person who seems cool. I don't know. But I know isolation and PTSD are not a good mix for healing.
As I thought about reaching out initially, every fear and scenario from the past came up and I was overwhelmed. Has there been anyone to have this experience? If so, how did you handle it?