am very tierd but cannot sleep tooo worried about what is going to happen in the next couple of weeks, willl i lose my home. how much of my benefits will i lose, how will i pay my rent, council tax, i don,t use my heating any more, don,t put a light on unless it is to dark to see, don,t eat every day, hungry most of the time, tried to talk to my doctor about how i was feeling,what a waste of time, won,t go to him again.have aasked my oldest son if he and his wife wants to share a house with me, means me giving up my walkin shower and stair lift, but don,t know what else to do,everyone is struggling now. i am totaly fed up with life. i have worked all my life and yet i feel there is no value in staying alive any more.i was looking after my parents and my partners parents and my sister and doing a full time job but had to give it up when i fell ill and could no longer do the job i trained forboth sets of parent have gone now and my sister has carers now, but now i need help, i did have a carer but when i had me medical they stopped my care money and put me on lower disabilty. but i cannot get out of bed without help most mornings if i borther going to bed.waiting to hear about assessment from social services about commode and toilet seat hightner, and a bar to help me get into and out of bed,i won,t hold my breath i understand the problems they have too.