Hi every one, I have been reading a lot of your letters & Blog's for a few months now. I have not commented on any, because I have been taking stock of what your all going through, and also had a lot of "Fibro Flares" of my own, plus countless nights awake with Pain from both Fibro & Osteo Arthritis, IBS. so had a rotten time of it over the Christmas & New Year. ( That reminded me A Happier New Year too one & all!) Gentle Hug's with that.
I am at the moment battling Fibro, hence the 7:00 am Blog. Have been up all night. Sleepless in Kent, normal for me. I just wished that someone was here with me, as I live alone, with Olly my 2 year old Cat. Loneliness is hard to deal with, yet I cope. My family have treated me like a shirker for not going out or visiting. Except Mum & Dad, but even Dad took a snide remark at me. I have been so sick with it all then ended up with Flu on top of it all, just as I was recovering. Now I am on the mend , at long last! I am going to Mum's for dinner on Sunday, Mum will be her ever loving self, Bless her! She is 85 this year. Dad is the one I am apprehensive over. I feel I might just explode with all that has been negatively said to me over the holiday. Not just by dad. Friends have stayed away, my Nice Abbey has also shunned me. were normally so close. I just don't know what to say or to do anymore??? Who can I turn to for understanding and a little Respect? I do not feel sorry for myself, but just wish I could be my old self for a while. perhaps then if I could let them see the difference in me? I would be able to get them to see that it is a real illness and I am not a wast of a good life! But struggling with an unseen Illness, even when I don't look sick.
respect too you all, with warm thoughts. Suzy xxx