Hi friends, those of you who have read my previous blogs will know that my poor fibro battered body is still trying to fight off a nasty infection that my lovely gp is battling to beat with different cocktails of drugs and steroids which seem to work until i stop taking them and hey ho, off it goes again....im still fighting to stay out of hospital and so far the new cocktail seems to be working but i know its only temporary as ive got thrush both in my mouth and (ahem....you know where!) also i have big holes in my mouth and tounge caused by infection and its sooooo painful to eat and today ive started with a really sore throat again and earache, which is another sign that the infection is only dormant. gp has been giving me meds to try to boost my immune system but it doesnt look good and i am back there tomorrow night and he says he cant do anything else as an out patient and i need admitting but by god im going nowhere!
well thats an update but my question is this...hubby sadly leaving before new year to live and work in canbada, his dream job and will make us comfortable which in these days is too good an oppertunity to miss! He will come home for a month every 3 so thats good and hes worked all over the world but not for a few years now and i didnt have fibro then (i contracted it after meningitis in 2007) but i am so worried about mine and my childrens safety. my fibro fog is so bad, lwhat if i leave something on? did i really lock all the doors and windows? did i switch all the lights out on my little twiggy things i love so much? did i switch all the gas rings off? is the garage locked and the gates? i will turn into a neurotic wreck! i need a system so i dont turn obsessive and i could quite easily when it comes to safety especially at night. I have whiteboards and a daily planner that i have to write things down for the next day and week but half the time i forget to write on them! I need to know that ive done everything so that i can sleep. i have no probs falling asleep i just cant stay asleep no longer tha 90 mins at a time and worrying is not going to help......i would be so grateful for any suggestions as my eldest dayghter is threatening to come home from uni to look after us and that is the last thing i want as she is doing so well and loves uni life and the guilt would destroy me! i need to reassure her too and quickly! please.....any advice? what has worked for you as memory joggers? Gentle hugs....Charlii xx