For those poor people who have been following my downs & even further downs over the past few weeks, I thought I'd cheer your day up with a different moan.
I've really not been myself lately, the pain from the fibro has been relentless & I've fallen victim to the scourge that is depression! When I took the overdose 3 weeks ago, it was because I felt like everything was too much to bear. OK, I survived. Now I'm a total believer in fate & that we all face challenges for a reason & to learn from them too, but I think that someone 'up there' (wherever that is) is playing a dirty game with me!
I'm trying to get myself strong again, but I keep being knocked back!
I haven't been able to go out and socialize since my overdose which isn't helping, but so many things are going wrong that it's almost comical.
I wat to move but can't decide whether to rent in Exeter, near my family & it's my home town, or Wells which is a lovely little city which also happens to be flat. I live in Frome which is one of the most hilly towns I've known & it's not at all disabled friendly. Anyway my lease is coming to an end, so I thought now would be a good time to move. I looked online & found some nice retirement flats in both Exter & Frome, so thought I'd view the Wells ones first, as they are closest. I arranged to view 2 flats on Friday ( which also is D day ... DIVORCE day yipee!!!!!), I digress.....
The estate agent was doing all the normal things & then asked about my finances. I explained that I had a house on the market, but was temporarily in receipt of ESA but also had DLA, but I had a son who would act as a guarantor, should they need it. He was really snotty! Told me that as I was high risk, I'd need 6 months rent upfront AND a large deposit. When I protested that I will have capital soon but regardless had never defaulted on my rent, he snorted again & asked in a real sneery way if my sons' income was over £36,000 because they wouldn't consider it if he earns less than that! This is for a tiny one bedroom retirement flat!
This got me thinking - how can I get another flat? So I phoned Devon & Somerset councils & every advice line I could think of & the opinion seems to be to get on the housing register, then if my landlord wants his flat back I will be homeless, then they could help.
I am so demoralised! I got this flat easily, the agent just needed to check that I wasn't a mass murderer, or bankrupt, asked for one months rent as a deposit & I moved in!
At least I've got Housing benefit. Not if a sour sounding lady from adult services has her way.
She has to come to do my financial assessment to see if I have to pay towards my PA , which is ok, but then she heard that I had a house, so why wasn't I living there? I explained about my husband & I breaking up & that I had been forced to find somewhere to live, urgently. She got quite hysterical about not being entitled to help with my rent while I had a house, the fact that it's up for sale & has a resident bully of a husband didn't sway her at all. I now have to look forward to her visit tomorrow, as well as worrying about the Atos check & DLA renewal & selling my house & division of property with soon to be ex, all while feeling very unwell. It's a laugh a minute here!
Sorry to go on for so long, I'm just really cheesed off!
Hope your lives are running a bit smoother
hugs Cobweb x