Been to GP oh my that was a close shave.

[Devonlady]

Well I went to GP as promised. Was a rather interesting visit.

Started with the arm and shoulder that I hurt with the fall on Friday, managed not to cry.

Next was the cant sleep or eat, slight wobble of the lip.

Next was the pain on a rang 1 to 10 told him it was 15ish.

He asked what I thought was causing it as I had been doing so well and the dam burst and I was hysterical, only word for it, Not my finest moment snot everywhere.

He was lovely waited until I was calmer, byt that I mean not gripping my bag as thought he was gonna run off with it and snot and tears less.

Calmly he asked me what I thought he should deal with as couldn't sore the pain, sleep and the lack of control all at once. Off I go again.

The upshot is he was quite rightly concerned that I may do something daft so he increased my Ametryptaline from 40mg to 75mg, only got a weeks though so I can't take them all, Has he never heard of paracetamol? Anyway I have to go back next week and see if we need to increase them some more and I also have urgent referal to depression and anxiaty dept. Thought for a minute he was considering hospital so I agreed, I have a real fear of mental hospitals as nan had three nervious breakdowns.

I also told him can't eat and the man who told me 18 months ago I was obese and needed to loose weight told me ti go get chocolate. Don't think he meant as much as I bought but oh well I did loose the weight. I told him about this blog and that I thought it helped as made me look at things from a slightly more upside so as not to depress everyone and he told me to do it. So here it is will no doubt be blogging more and eating chocolate while doing it. xx

[webby]

Bless you have had arough day. Everytime i go to docs i am close to tears cause it deos get you down. Please try to be positive and get all the help you can.

Just think all that lovely chocolate think i will join you and have a donut, lol but please gentl hugs there is light at the ned of the tunnel sending you all my love angie webb

[Hidden]

Yay for a half decent GP. Glad he is referring you to see someone about the depression. Fibro won't kill anyone but the worrying etc will. If you need someone to talk to, I am here as I am going through the same thing. I can always pass on the ideas that my lovely Psychologist has suggested for when I start to get really anxious and stressed and want to self harm.

Be strong. We are all here for you.

Much love.

[Devonlady]

Thanks both of you. I have always avoided the head docs in the past my Nan always said to keep away from them she had three nervious breakdowns and was hospitalised three times.

This time I just have no fight left and to think this is down to the DSS is criminal reall it is.

I hav send a email to mp telling him just what I think and how I am feeling. My doc is a good one bless him, not rolling fo the eyes and just plain helpful wish you could all have a doc like him. Took me years to find him and so glad I did.

Going to take the meds and be a space cowboy I expect but if it stops me wanting to die got to be better than this. xx

[getactive]

Hi Glad you have got a good GP I am lucky because I have too. Dont worry about seeing the mental health team they dont want to hospitalisepeople these days unless they have to I am receiving good support from them and I hope that you find the same. It makes everything much worse when you cant sleep so heres hoping the Amitryptaline works. I can really empathise with all you are going through but trust me it does get better, I hope that you have lots of support Sue xx

[fairycazzie]

Hia Devon lady, that is what our Dr's are there for chicken, no matter what you put on them they are trained to deal with each situation accordingly ..blimey i go in one minute all smiles and they join in and joke and then i can go in floods and they dont join in but sit and listen lol.

I am just a record player saying the same old .

YOu try out the higher dose of amitryptiline and if after that week or so they now having much effect but just making the symptoms they are supposed to help more then you talk and let the Dr know as my sister takes Amitryptiline and has taken for over a year and half i think now and slowly increased but she is fine on them as i keep asking how she is and how they are on her as they are known for 'zombie or more depressive' they also used for the nerve pain and to relax you and also to help you sleep, everyone seems to stand back when they hear that word Amitryptiline ( i did) as i took it 16yrs ago for depression but could not cope with work i was walking around like it would take me 3 days to do one simple task lol i got put on something else. that livened me up and amde me opposite.

I took last year for the nerve pain .. but had to change. so as say just keep an and a diary like i do of how you and what you feel.

You enjoy a cuppa and some choccies and have a tear as much as you like xxxxxx

[Devonlady]

thanks Sue, 75mg of ama tonight and then eye specalist tomorrow and cab. Youe give me hope.

Fairy, I was on 40mg for pain and not sure they will work for depression but he said he cant give me anything else unless he weans em off them first as is concerned that I might go over the edge if he does that so he is sticking to the ametrypt. I think secretely he wants to pass the decission to the head docs, can;'t blame him there.I do wonder if I am not a bit bi polar as up or down no inbetween but been fairly stable for two years now. I am so sad that the dss have broght me so low.

[julieevh]

Ohh for a good GP!

The Dss have a hell of a lot to answer for - you stick to your guns and don't let the b***ards grind you down.

Hope the meds do the trick

You are in my prayers DevonLady xx

[Devonlady]

Thanks Julie,

I have meds only taken one lot and seems to have chilled me out a bit. xx