Hello every onee! <3
Well!!! The dreaded day arrived of my ESA Medical! Woke up this morning and could hardly walk and my wrists, elbows and back just didnt want to work at all. Could of got back in bed and sobbed because i knew i had to drive there and im really really struggling at the moment with my manual car! Got my crutches and splints though and my many pills and went!
Arrived and felt like i waited agessss! Was bout half an hour which was horrible, Couldn't sit still and was aching all over but my wrists struggled so much with the crutches it was really tough!
Had the medical and she asked away, Asked me about walking 100 metres or what ever it was with aids and how many times i stop and how long it takes. Started to get little annoyed, Fibro fog kicked in! Told her i didnt measure how far i could walk and i didnt time myself so i had no idea i just no that each step is a stuggle. Broke down crying though because i got so frustrated and was so worried, She then asked if i wanted to come bk another day to carry on but i told her that there was no way i was driving over here again and if i didnt HAVE to i wouldn't. It was just all horrible, She was no where near as nice as the other lady and was very sharp with me. Asked me about bathing and i told her i couldn't get out the bath and my partner will actually lift me out it, She kinda made me feel like a liar with that answer and then said well how does she manage that, ive been a nurse for years and cant! In fairness my other half is about 17 stone and very strong the woman who did my interview was bout 8 stone and 5ft nothing and looked like a twig! Annoyed me if im honest. The physical was painful and the mobility was really poor today which im hoping showed her how much I actually struggle! Just so worried about the answer now Sad
Fingers crossssed!!!!! x