i have been very very down and it culminated in my attempting to finish my self off on friday evening i have had to be watched closely and m slowly very slowly beginning to communicate with people again.
please folks if you are depressed or down phone someone and just let them talk even you cant i dont know hoe long it wwill be before i get to laughing again. i wrote a lot of poetry at this time of darkness it appears that is when i write my poems best.
the other thing i want to mention is that a member from here that i have never actually met and who has been down herself took the time to keep messaging me on my phone and then sent me some flowers with cute net butterflies and some chocolates, it was not so much the gift but to realise that someone somewhere actually did care if i lived or died.even tho she had never met me.
thanks kia the flowers were the beginning of my road back i am centering on the fact that you did this adwhen i am fit again mentally i will be coming to meet you in person.
i am posting apicture of me as therewasafeeling that i was dark skinned as i was from zimabwe I found that amusing and am just making sure there is a face to the rubbish i write. thanks to all the others who sent me messages on fb etc. it actually does help. i am the sixty year old one with fuzzy hair. petal