Well as the title says I cant cope with this life anymore. I dont want to carry on like this. Yes I have fibro and expect to get tired but this is unreal. I get up after a bad night sleep get daughter off to school then I have to have a sit down and I am nodding off I am so tired. I dont sleep because my body twitches and jumps. I get up to try and shake the tiredness off but I feel dreadful and just want to sleep.
I dread my daughter coming home from school as that means I have to sort her dinner out . She does help bless her and I love her to pieces and I feel dreadful for thinking like that.
I have the pain from fibro on top of that I have this pain from gallstones(maybe) and my depression is getting worse again and I ad only just got it undercontrol.
How am I meant to cope didnt realise I would be this tired.
I volunteer with homestart and I am suppose to go to see a young mum in the morning to support her ( not that she wants me there she only doing it to keep s.s . off her back) I dont want to let her or homestart down.
I cant cope , it hurts to do the housework the garden is a right mess and the grass needs cutting ( at least the rain prevents me doing that at the mo lol).
My family are no help even tho both of my sisters have fibro they hold down fulltime jobs have a good social life (one sister is out dancing most nights) and think I should be able to do the same. So I just dont tell them they make me feel lazy or I am using it as an excuse to not do anything.
My daughters dad is 200 miles away so not like she can just go for the weekend.
I am really hoping they find something on friday when I go for my scan and then they can sort out surgery for me I might get a proper sleep from the anithetic
Sorry for the rant and I dont even know if any of this make sense.Just thought writing it down would help hope others are having a better day
xx Penny xx