depression has got really bad this week

hi all u lovely people... i am going through some problems which to me is knocking me over the edge.. it was my birthday yesterday and i ended up spoiling it for my family because my depression is so bad i just want to go under my covers and stay there ( had to go to bed last night at 6pm).. at this moment between the pain because the stress is causing me to want to not wake up in the morning... i am not coping and hope u dont mind my post.. i just need someone who understand help me through this.... thanks so much my lifeline fibro friends..

diane xx

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  • I know its awful I was so depressed yesterday, I forced myself to get out today, but Im now left shattered and in pain, I hope things improve for you soon, hugs and love sent

  • Hi hun - you are allowed to have a wallow - you have FM. HOWEVER that was yesterday!

    Look at what you achieved today - you got up and went out - yay!

    Yes you have pain now - but you would have had pain even if you stayed home wouldnt you?!

    Its baby steps sometimes..oh and Happy Happy Birthday!

    gentle hugs

    xx

  • Something my therapist said to me yesterday - "Sometimes, although the drive might not be there to do certain things (i.e. get out of bed, etc.) you just have to push yourself into it and the drive will come." She's right. I understand the pain and the depression, I've been fighting it for a while now. I'm so sorry you had such a difficult day yesterday, let alone on your birthday, but please don't beat yourself up. Days like these will happen. It might be helpful for you to talk to your family when you're feeling better (and up to it), to explain how you felt and talk about how they felt. Keep the lines of communication open. Don't shut your family out. They're there for you - and so are we. :)

  • hI NOW COME ON WE ALL HAVE OUR DOWN DAYS SO YOU ARE FINE BETTER TO LET IT OUT THAN KEEP IT ALL IN YOU WOULD BE WORSE. sORRY YOU DID NOT ENJOY YOUR BIRTHDAY BUT PERHAPS YOU COULD CALL THE PEOPLE YOU SAW THAT DAY AND ASK TO SEE THEM LATER TODAY OR WED AND APOLOGISE TO THEM AND DO SOMETHING NICE TO MAKE UP FOR IT, ITMIS HORRIBLE WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE THAT AND YOU CANT HELP IT BUT YOU JUS CANNOT SNAP OUT OF IT BUT I AM SURE IF YOU EXPLAIN THEY WILL UNDERSTAND HOPEFULLY YOU WILL FEEL BETTER TOMMORRROW LOVE TO YOU DIDDLE X

  • oh thank u so much... this has helped me knowing there is people oout there who care and understand... i broke down and explained how i felt to my husband and he told the kdis.. so they now know how i am feeling.. hopefully it lifts soon cause 5 years ago i was hospilised due to my depression an i dont want to go down that lonely road again.. as i said thaks honey xxx

  • big hugs diane and happy birthday, hope u feel brighter soon lou x

  • Happy birthday dianne,

    Thats what we are all here for hun, you let it all out and i hope you pick up soon hun, big hugs.

    kel xxx

  • thanks everyone for how commented to help me... please excuse my spelling those days my mind just goes blank and i cant think at all how the word is spelt... i feel awful. worse than i have felt in many many years...

    hope this finds everyone well and now suffering how i am.. thank u all once again.. love diane xxx

  • belated happy birthday, Diane. sorry to hear you were feeling so bad that you couldn't really enjoy it. am very glad you've opened up to your family. keep your hubby and your GP in the loop about how you're feeling. they want to help and can only do so if you guide them as to your needs. if you feel like crawling under the covers, then hopefully your hubby can help at such times. having company does help, but keep it simple - to one person at a time, perhaps.

    hope you're having a better day today, but if not, then please come on here and share your feelings. depression is a companion to fibro and we all fight it in varying degrees. like you, I spent much of 2011 hiding away under the covers. you've got friends and you've got family. lean on them to get you through this bad patch. they don't want to see you suffering more than you need to.

    Sammi x

  • Diana. Know what you are going through. I too suffer terrible depression and have done for more years than I can remember.I Try not to take anti depressants as I've never found one that works. The Fibro doesn't help nor do all the other health problems I have. I just keep telling myself when I have it really bad to just hold on in there and tell myself it will eventually pass off. I just say to my husband when I.m bad, "I've got the Black Dog again" as Churchill used to call it. Had it that long now am used to living with it (I know that sounds mad) but have forgotten what its like to be "normal" now. Even when I'm feeling "better" its still lurking there in the background. Even though I have excrutiating pain with FM/ME/Arthritis/Inflammed bowel etc the mental pain of depression is far greater than all these. Saw loads of phsychiatrist,psychologists etc. all to no avail. Could right a book on the condition now. GP asked me do I ever think of ending my life and I told him every day but the hurt it would bring my family stops me from doing so. If I ever get to the point where I really needed someone my GP gave me a telephone number to ring and of course you can always ring The Samaritans. Can't say I ever have done,but nice to know there is a listening ear when you feel your at the end of your tether, so keep this in mind if you feel you cant take any more. Just remember Diane you're not the only one out there suffering and we're always on here to listen when you feel you need someone to listen to you because we've been there and we know how you're feeling. Unless you've experience depression there is no way you can possibly know how it feels.

    Keep your chin up babe and even though we can see each other, we're out there in the ether (spelling?).

    Love.X.

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