short fuse.

[Mandypandy1969]

I feel my moods are getting worse and I have a worse short fuse which was bad enough before I got diagnosed with fibro. I know a lot of it must be due to fatigue and not feeling like doing anything. I have no strength in my body. every limb aches when trying to do something. at 49 years old, what a b****y (edited by Admin) life and to top it all my e.s.a. enhanced was stopped last November. after rent and bills I am left with nothing. I get so depressed. waiting for a court date as taking d.w.p. to court. I was on enhanced e.s.a. for my mental health, now diagnosed with fibro and it damn stopped which is a double hit of depression and hopelessness.. sorry for the down rant. feeling so miserable and worthless.

[Horsesgalore]

I'm so sorry you feel so miserable & down, it's really not good is it? I wanted to say that I also struggle with my moods & short fuse, I am the same age as you & don't know if it's because of the fibro, my age or maybe both. Take care & try & be kind to yourself x

[Mandypandy1969 in reply to Horsesgalore]

I do try when my mood is a bit better. Thank you. just so debilitating living this life. x

[Ramjets]

Don't be sorry, you are obviously at a low ebb and if you need to have a rant then let it all out my love. I know how you feel as I have been at that point where you feel you're not much use to anyone and the future looks bleak and it did affect my moods and temper. However after I changed GPs I was lucky enough to get a doctor who was understanding and supportive and who helped me a great deal. Have you spoken to yours about how you feel? You may benefit from some form of talking therapy or counselling. Mine suggested some ways I could help myself and also referred me for Cognitive Behaviour Therapy (CBT) which did do me some good. This is not for everyone (I never thought I would ever need any type of therapy or indeed even try it but what did I know!) but it may be worth having a go. When I started feeling a bit better I did some voluntary/work experience for the British Heart Foundation, which got me mixing with people again and gave me back a little self-worth. Also as it was voluntary I could set my own hours etc so only did it when I felt up to it. Maybe you could consider voluntary work at some point - there is all kinds available for people of all abilities. In the meantime, we are here to listen and support you. Take care lovely, sending hugs. xxx

[Mandypandy1969 in reply to Ramjets]

Thank you for your kind words. means a lot. I will talk to my g.p. about how I am feeling. I don't know if gabapentin has made me worse or not mood wise. I keep a diary of every day symptoms I experience and need to look back. xx

[Annmurry]

Its awful. Wish i could wave a magic wand. I hate the whole system. Is it really worth the fight!. Yes i think it is but do i think there should be more complaints to the DWP. Yes i do. I hope you can get it back xx

[Mandypandy1969 in reply to Annmurry]

I want to write and complain about the assessor as she was so rude and listened to nothing my mum said, let alone me and I was so fatigued, mum had to take me. assessment was last September so maybe too late. just haven'

[Annmurry]

I think you can still complain just need a good reason why you didnt at the time.

[Mandypandy1969]

ok. I find these things so stressful, I just couldn't find the energy to do the complaint. x

[Annmurry in reply to Mandypandy1969]

Maybe mention about stress. Go to citizens advice. They maybe able to help.

[mcglada0]

So sorry that you’re having such a hard time. I’m kind of feeling the same just now. So sore and fatigued! Grandson’s birthday tomorrow and I’m so worried that I’m not going to be well enough to go out for tea. We’re really close and I can’t bear letting him down. Think the fibro gets to us all. We’re so lucky to have this group of lovely supportive people to listen to our rants and give good advice. I really empathise with you and want you to know that you are not alone. Things will get better . Our lives are just a bit of a roller coaster. Please keep posting when you feel like this as I know that the kind replies that you get will help pull you through these tough times. Take care. Xx

[Mandypandy1969 in reply to mcglada0]

Thank you for your support. you will manage to go for tea with your grandson. you love him and you will find the strength. we suffer after we have done an activity but we have to have some sort of enjoyment in life. life is so hard with this illness. I pushed myself to do an hour weeding in the garden yesterday and suffering big time today but I need to do it. my mum can't. I love my gardening but I can only do a little at a time. so frustrating when I used to do hours on the garden in a day. I can't work and get really depressed with no money. had my e.s.a. enhanced stopped so I have to try and do something to give me a purpose. I applied for p.i.p. yesterday and taking d.w.p. to court over my e.s.a. I have probably repeated myself in this message lol, wouldn't surprise me. go and enjoy your time with your grandson. you can do it. sending hugs. xx

[mcglada0 in reply to Mandypandy1969]

Thank you for your kind message. I will let you know if I make it today. I am exactly like you with the garden . It really upsets me when it’s a mess so I overdo it when I can then - zap ! Please look after yourself. There’s many of us here who can recognise how you feel. Having financial worries and having to deal with it just adds to the stress and makes the condition worse. I agree - it is so hard living with fibro. But just remember there are a lot of people here who want to listen and offer friendly advice. You have been kind and positive to me now you must do the same to yourself. Sending lots of good wishes. Xx

[Mandypandy1969 in reply to mcglada0]

Thank you. please push and make your grandsons day. you can do it. once I push myself to go out, I make myself cope as best I can

xx

[mcglada0 in reply to Mandypandy1969]

I’m really going to try. Thank you. Please be kind to yourself and remember that we’re all here for you . Xx

[Mandypandy1969 in reply to mcglada0]

going to cut the lawn. I know I will be in agony later but it's a lively day. must do something and my mum struggles. xx

[mcglada0 in reply to Mandypandy1969]

Good for you - remember to rest afterwards. I’ve just gone out back gate for short walk in woods. Haven’t been over door in 3 days! Keep in touch and take care. Xx

[Mandypandy1969]

yeah I will. you too. sending hugs. xx