Fed Up

I'm getting concerned and I'm afraid to see the doc. I have had so many things going on lately I sometimes sit here wondering why I even bother going on.

I'm in constant pain I also have osteoarthritis in my knees so every step I take is painful, I can barely sleep lucky if I get 4 hrs a night and I sit on the sofa alone and cold overthinking things.

My pacemaker hurts and my whole left shoulder area is on constant pain and now I have started limping. My partner's job is at risk and I can't get a job cos soon as they see I have a pacemaker and epilepsy they raise an eyebrow and basically that is that!

Christmas in a few days and I don't want it to even happen. I love Christmas so that is a very bad thing. Afterwards I have my PIP hearing.......such is life!

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  • Oh dear, it seems like that sometimes everything gets on top of you, you hit the nail on the head, overthinking! I'm like that at night if I start thinking about things I can say goodbye to sleep, so I try to be quiet and read or watch some tv to relax my mind. I have osteoarthritis, RA, as well as fybro so I know the pain you are going through, luckily I don't have to worry about work as we're retired now, I'm sure something will come along for your partner, try to put it all on hold for Xmas, so easy to say I know, but if you can just say I'm not going to worry about anything just now only preparing for a lovely family Xmas you won't have time to think about the other things , you can do it, have a wonderful Xmas and good luck 😃🎄

  • I'm terrible for overthinking my partner does his best and is always there for me, I just panic that I'm worrying him too much.

    He is off from today until Jan yayyyyyy!!!

    Thank you for your support and I hope you have a wonderful Christmas

    abra x

  • I think Mydexter is right....too much going on in your head. I am wondering as you cannot work if you get any benefits. It's a bad time of the year for many but I sincerely hope you can jolly yourselves up and enjoy Christmas and start worrying about other stuff afterwards....do try and you will be amazed what you can do to help enjoy the festivities...Sending gentle hugs xx

  • Thank you for your advice, have a great Christmas today I am happy in pain but happy

    love

    abra x

  • Hi there abra_cadabra I'm so sorry your feeling so low and in pain my friend. I know how you feel cos i have Polymyagia aswell & the one sets the other off & like you, I'm either hobbling around or in pain. But luckily I don't get down, well very rarely these days but I've had it for many years and i take Amitriptyline which really help, they help with the muscle spasms, sleep and the obvious effect of an antidepressant. If you don't already take this kind of medication, I'm sure you would find it helpful, so it would be good idea to try to see GP. Maybe just write a list of the things that are really bothering you and see what they suggest would help.I think they must be getting used to Fibro patients giving them half a dozen complaints all at once. I feel like I'm rambling on when I go & luckily I have a lovely GP & she just laughs, she says, "don't worry, I know what's its like".

    Have you tried hydrotherapy? It's Very good and helps a lot of ppl.suffering with Arthritis & Fibro.

    I wish you luck with your PIP hearing, it's probably all the stress of that & Xmas that's contributed to making you feel so unwell.

    I'm usually around if you need to talk, you can alway pm me.

    P eace, luv n light

    Jan xx

  • Thank you for the advice and kind words, I will look into hydrotherapy after the xmas break x

  • Hi there

    I am so sorry that you are feeling so down.

    Lack of sleep can do all sorts of things to us, even down to playing tricks on our minds.

    I am like you and I over think just about everything. You do have an awful lot going on at the moment.

    Please don't be offended but I have given you the number for the Samaritans. Talking your problems through with a stranger often helps a lot:

    healthunlocked.com/fibromya...

    Have you ever been referred to a Pain Clinic or a Pain Management Clinic? If not, perhaps it would be a good idea to see your GP and ask for a referral. Hopefully the Pain Clinic will be able to give you some injections to relieve the pain in your knees.

    They will also be able to look at your medication and see if there is anything they can change or add.

    How are you feeling now? Have you sat your partner down and told him how you are feeling?

    Please do come back and let us know how you are.

    Wishing you much peace

    Lu x

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  • Thanks for the info, my doc gave me all this info too and has recommended I see a counsellor. I do tend to ramble when I visit him and then end up telling myself to shut up!!

    My partner knows how I feel, he is very good at listening to me and takes away as many worries and stresses of the day he can, obviously the pain he cannot take away. he is awesome and has saved me from myself many a time.

    He breaks up for Christmas today so I will have him with me every day until Jan 2nd...some people's nightmare but not for me, he is my world and my greatest friend.

    love and hugz for Christmas

    abra

  • Hiya abra_cadabra so sorry your going through this. It really must seem like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders. You shouldn't have the pip worry or the job problems. It's hard enough just coping with the pain. Try and keep your chin up darling. Your not on your own with the over thinking though. Take care xx

  • Hi abra_cadabra

    I am so genuinely sorry to read this and it sounds like there is so much going on for you my friend. I want to sincerely wish you all the best of luck, and please take care of yourself.

    All my hopes and dreams for you

    Ken

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