Mm have wondered what to say now. It may be that I ended up on the wrong support group but I thank you for the input I've had here. Am not sure how things will work out from this point but I'm noting the following. Are the effects of my previous 6 years of mental health meds wearing off?
I can say, "I can think" "I can feel more" "life is feeling a bit softer" "I don't feel too tired and not aches and pains like I've got a cold" and a few more things I've not thought for a long time.
But, I'm also thinking "how did I get to this point" "what a disastrous life" "how do find a meaningful way of being (if I continue feeling better) "how do I explain to an employer the car crash of my c.v?"
Also, after leaving my fathers tonight (and it didn't feel like doing the Tour de France to walk there this time) he said don't worry about the cold you'll be walking fast, he doesn't know I'm feeling different, so I think did nobody listen to me for the last 6 years? Walking fast was the last thing I had been able to do. I'm remembering more things, like how I fought not to receive the damn injection in the first place and finally gave in.
Finally, I think I'm having phantom symptoms, it's like I move my body and I'm expecting to feel a certain way yet I'm sure I don't.
I may not need to post here in the future. I'm not going to forget the torture I've felt, so am doubting my fibromyalgia connection but I'll always think of those of you who have it, if there is something I can do in the future for sufferers, I'd do it.
I've never had reprieves in my symptoms ever , am just hoping things don't revert.