Been finding myself getting down again. I try to be as happy as I can but its so hard. I feel so lonely I have very few people in my life anymore and the people that are here offer very little support. I feel like if I had cancer everyone would care but because I have this invisible disease and I look fine i'm on my own no-one even ask how im feeling anymore but I guess thats a good thing since they don't care anyway. I try to still do things and be as active as I can but its so hard i'm always in pain and end up having to go home and go to bed, I feel like life is passing me by. I used to do hair had a very big clientel and lots of "friends" but I have nothing to offer anyone anymore. I've been this way since 09 you would think by now i'd be used to it but it still hurts I miss my old life😔 and sadly I miss my "fake friends"