Nerves are kicking in big time as I have my assessment tomorrow morning at 8.30 so know I won't sleep tonight as well as it being the day before my daughters wedding and her hen do is tomorrow which we are supposed to be going to have a relaxing day in a spa which I have never been to before I have opted to have my nails done something else I have never had done before as I thought having a massage which I would love would be a big no no good at the time but then even more flare up. As I have family visiting tomorrow possible today thought I would try and do some cleaning last night what a mistake that was but when you have no one else to do it what are you meant to do. I can't stand mess I like a clean tidy house although my little 6 month dog doesn't agree as she has just got all her toys out all over the floor and is insisting I play with her how can one resist such a cute face it's worse than having the 4 kids when they were little. Have been in agony all night with my back and knees and can hardly walk which is why I did it all yesterday as don't want to spoil the wedding. Which I know is going to be two long tough days and will probably leave me in bed most of next week. But so nervous about this medical it's making me feel physically sick to my stomach. Everyone keeps saying I will be fine but just heard from another friend she has lost her car and has been Prut down to lower care. The care part doesn't worry me so much as I am middle rare DLA now but the car even though I don't use it every single day it's there if I need it. I feel socially isolated as it is and I know that is going to make it worse I don't go out now on my own for fear of falling. Physio have just given me a stroller to try and help me gain some confidence. My 95 year old neighbour goes out more than me she even offered to get me anything if I needed it bless her.
Sorry to moan everyone just feeling very very stressed and emotional and just want this medical over and done with.
Hope everyone has a relatively pain and stress free day