i attended the surgery this week for results of an xray id had . i told the gp i was feeling really low and in so much pain and not sleeeping .he replied that he has to go to work with pain and has learned to live with it . he wouldnt prescribe me anti depressants as they dont make me feel any different but suggested i had therapy to talk through what is making me feel like this . BANG MY HEAD AGAINST A BRICK WALL !!!! ive just told you you idiot ! so i am booked in to see a psyco what ever . and pain clinic beg march where i am to be "taught" how to control and live with the pain using relaxation and discuss with other sufferers . i will give it a try as i will do anything to be able to live instead of exist . i know theres no magic pill or wand but why cant we, with constant pain be believed instead of being thought of as whimps. ive worked hard all my adult life caring for others working long split shifts from early morning to late . ive brought a family up and then cared for my grandchildren . my pain is REAL . and debilitating and life changing . im 62 and this is not what i had planned for . as you imagine its one of my bad days today . 5 nights on trot with no proper sleep .cant get comfy in bed / chair . wherever . tramadol is the drug at the moment again for me. have done the rounds of all the meds gp prescibe . none work . so zombie time with tramadol for the time being . thanks to all you that have read this all to the end . i hope someone can get comfort in knowing that they have same problems as me and to know they arent going insane .