Hi everyone, I apologise if my post is a moany one but I'm in a dark place just now. I have fibro and severe depressive disorder alongside several other illnesses and generally I cope but the last few days I've been so low and had a bad fibro flare. I'm on venlafaxine for the depression but they were changed from a morning to half dose morning and half dose in the evening. I am beginning to think this could be the cause of me going downhill again. This is having a major impact on my relationship with my fiance and we have hardly spoken for 3 days now. He is trying to get to grips with my fibro and is wonderful when he knows what's happening - but at the moment even I don't know.
I am due for wrist surgery on Thursday . carpal tunnel and something to do with other ligaments that are causing my hands and fingers to curl. I am so stressed about it and I know that's not helping my condition and situation but because his ex had the carpal tunnel op he started telling me how I'd be etc. She doesn't have fibro though. I had steroid injections into my wrists a few months ago and the pain was horrendous, I almost passed out - luckily the consultant knew about fibro and explained the increased sensitivity caused by fibro was why I was in so much pain. So taking that into account I know Thursday is going to be rough but it has to be done.
I am missing my old life - the life without all the restrictions and pain. I am bursting into tears for no rational reason. Worst of all this is all destroying the relationship with a man I love with all my heart.
I want to curl up in a ball and make the world go away right now .