Started crying in the physiotherapists. Wrong therapist to cry at.

[Annita]

Hi all,

Hope everyone's ok.

I'm about to be a right whinge bag...

Physio appointment;

I travelled there by ferry and car, I drove myself although I'd had a terrible migraine the night before. Anyway. I knew I was in a mood when an elderly man, making conversation asked me 'what's wrong with you?' I replied 'what's wrong with you?'

Cheeky, I know, but I said to him I was kidding

because he realised himself it was a gaff. Poor wee man didn't mean it.

So, in for appointment, had a bit of a consultation, he had a wobble about at my sore arm, he thinks it's a pinched nerve, showed me how to do some exercises, they were a bit uncomfortable and I started crying, out of the blue. I know I'm stressed out of my head but I think it's because I had to acknowledge how hard things have been and that the stress is taking its toll. I took his recommendation to see GP today. Gp gave me pregabalin to try for pain and been referred to community psychiatric nurse for counselling. I'm not depressed just stressed. I've previously been very depressed and hospitalised because of it for three inpatient stays, from 2007 I was just was very unwell, the last time being 2011. Thankfully I've managed to stay proactive in safeguarding my mental wellbeing through knowing my limits...I'm very aware, as is my husband, of the difference for me between stress and depression but since one can lead to another, I need to nip it in the bud.

It takes its toll a bit though, and trying to keep my ten year old ok is hard going to be honest. And having a teenager too and my husband working 7 days on, 7 days off (long shifts) is hard, the days he's off are easier but the 7 he's working are loooong days.

Right I'm done moaning on now.

In the words of Coldplay (when they were still cool):

'Nobody said it was easy,

No one ever said it would be this hard'

Still, tomorrow's another day.

This is what goes through my head for a second when someone asks how I am, but just go 'yeah, I'm fine'... It's quicker really😃

[TheAuthor]

I am so genuinely sorry to read that you are enduring such a stressful time with your pain levels, and I want to sincerely wish you all the best of luck. Please take care of yourself.

All my hopes and dreams for you

Ken

[Annita in reply to TheAuthor]

Thanks Ken,

I think it was just a difficult day. I will try to take better care of myself, I've put my own needs on the back burner a wee bit but I'm aware of it now.

Annita

[Regnofibro1]

That seems to be the standard response "oh yea I'm fine!" Though I have to talking to a counselor might help if nothing but getting things in order in your own mind. Believe when I say people have got me at the right moment and I cry rage really lay it all out! The whole too much information comes to mind. Afterwards I say well you asked? Bet you won't do that again! I laugh it off but for some reason I do feel a little better. Like Fibro drove me to it! I Hope you have a better day! Hugs

[Annita in reply to Regnofibro1]

It's just easier to say Im fine sometimes isn't it?, if it's someone I'm more familiar with they might get the unabridged version on a bad day too.

A lifelong friend I hardly get a chance to catch up with, she's always on the go, struggles with neuralgia, when we bump into each other we do the 'how are you? 'I'm fine' routine then one of us usually says 'we're both lying aren't we?😃' and each give a brief rundown of who's got what.

the worst is when I tell someone about my diagnosis who tells me what to do... I'll decide what to do. We've all be there though 😃

Thanks for replying,

Annita x

[Hidden]

I think when your in so much pain you go in your self Your own little world Be brave take the pian be happy as you can We are all here to help each other

[Annita in reply to Hidden]

I think I do that yes, I've been taking to my bed a lot, which I usually try not to do but I'm exhausted most of the time.

It's so nice for people on here to understand

Thanks for replying 😃 x

[BaffledKaffy in reply to Annita]

Yes, sometimes you don't even have the energy to care, right? But I know, and I know you do, too, that we HAVE to care, because we will have a better day soon.

it's why we do get out and go to our appointments, even though we don't feel like it, because we know we need to get the help to feel better, have better days

[BaffledKaffy in reply to BaffledKaffy]

Sorry, I hit reply too soon. I hope you do feel better soon, and are able to recover a little from this stressful period you are in ... I have recently been through a short period/stressful time that affected me negatively for awhile, but it is changing/better, and I can feel the difference in both my mood and my body's "physical response." It is so easily impacted by our emotional being ...

Take care, hon ... Soft hugs ... bk

[Annita]

Hi BK

Yeah, it's hard to get the oomph needed to get to appointments and just get by really. My older son who's 17 reckons I'm 'porous' he says I feel other people's pain easily, I think he's right, I've always been very sensitive. It makes it hard to cope because I have to try not to worry too much.

I'm glad things are improving for you, that's good. 😃

I'm just having a one step forward, two back, time of it at the moment, I think the poor weather isn't helping.

Thanks for your reply

Annita x

[secondhandrose2]

Oooh that is a lot to cope with especially the times when your husband is working 7 days in a row, that must be stressful.

Well done for managing your own mental health, that's a real achievement! It's great that your GP didn't try to stick you onto meds for depression but instead suggested counselling which is far more effective for stress. Talking things over with someone is likely to help as it is usually supportive, and they may also suggest some coping strategies if you don't already know them.

Hold on in there, things pass, the difficult days go and then we feel on top of things again.

Suex

[Annita]

Hi Sue,

Thanks for saying that, it's taken me a while to get a hold of. I think getting a diagnosis of fibromyalgia has helped me to know that low energy hasn't always been down to depression.

When I went to the Dr ( a new young Dr) I told him I wasn't going to take antidepressants because it's the situation Im in which is stressing me out, a pill won't fix that. I said I just need a chance to air my thoughts and get a bit of support.

True to his word I received an appointment with a psychologist this week. Can't say fairer than that.

Take care

Annita x