Hi everyone, oh well Iv just had this conversation with my hubby and it's made me feel quite down, but is he right or not, I go to a friends cub camp every year but this year it's being held in April not that it makes any difference to my decision, due to getting worse with my Fibro Iv thought long and hard about it and come to the decision not to go this year, there is a four and a half hour drive to get to my friends and I do not think I could drive that distance now,also the camp is all weekend and you don't get much time to sit and relax, anyway I'm really going to miss not going but I think it's for the best safer for me and other road users.
Hubby said he feels sad that I'm not going as I have been going for years,but agrees that the drive might be too much,
then bam he turns it around to being all about him, he suffers from fatigue and has done for many years and Iv lived with him going for forty winks in the middle of party's, on holiday, lots of times over the years and I understand this is what he has to do to function properly and he says see I fight it ,you can't give in to these things or they take a grip.
"you don't push yourself
You lay down to it
you do nothing,"
meaning I don't exercise or go for a walk he says, aye right I would do if my legs were not to sore and heavy, go on your exercise bike, ok I will when my legs feel like my own. I just wish I could make him understand how this feels Iv told him what I'm experiencing now and it's as if the signal is not getting from my brain to my legs, sometimes they just won't move I want to turn over in bed but my legs don't move, sitting on the sofa Iv tried to get up but my legs won't hold me or move, "go back to the doc and tell him this" he says. I don't think the doc can make them work if they don't want to, I honestly do what I can keeping my home clean and tidy, keep the washing up to date i now I find I cannot stand and do the ironing as my arms get so weak and heavy, so I'm lucky that we can afford for me to send it get done when I have a good lot to make it worth it. I cook granted not great big meals but I still do the cooking. I crochet when I'm sitting as I find it relaxing.
He says he does understand that I'm not well but if this is him understanding? Or be honest am I in the wrong? Expecting more from him.
Rant over I think thanks for listening in a fashion. Lol