Whilst is nice to have some nice weather, it is affecting my Fibro badly, i wake up in the morning and its all i can do to stay awake. i manage to get myself moving, and am not to bad for the rest of the day, But come the evening, i am in terrible pain and so so tired, every joint and muscle in my body hurts, i am so bad all i can manage is a bowl of cereal or a sandwich, i have not eaten a proper meal for day, its to hot to cook, i just do not feel like eating.
I have been awake since 4am today as could not sleep, put fan on last night, but within a few minutes i am freezing, so turn it off, then i get to hot, can't win. I am so fed up with this condition, i have been so low, i have thought about giving up all the voluntary work i do with the community association, and othe other things i do with our housing landlord, giving up being chair of the housing advisory panel. I seem to be in demand here there and everywhere. I help my son and his partner, who has been ill, with the children etc etc etc, yet when i am ill and want help i am on my own, My other son cam over to get rid of the rotting decking and promise to build me some raised beds, but so far nothing, yet i am expected to help them when needed. I have started saying NO ! but then i am asked whats up with you why are you in that sort of mood, again can;t win. On the whole i am a very happy person, despite being on my own after the death o f my hubby 8 yrs ago, but sometimes i just feel used and helpless.
Today i have very high pain levels to the extent of being unbearable. so painkillers it is and try and carry on if possible.
Sorry for ranting but it is good to get it off my chest, to people that understand.