My body is in pain, hardly any sleep in the past 48 hours, tired as hell and all I want to do is crawl back to bed! The reason for all of this is my company, about 8 years ago I was given the news I had an hearing impairment and had to wear aids, I had an assessment from Access to Work in 2012 and told me the pieces of equipment I needed.
My company at the time of my award had no money to provide the said equipment, even though I told them that they could claim the money back. Then my boss got caught with his fingers in the till, so definitely no equipment coming my way, although I still had conferences and workshops to go to where the equipment would of helped me. I had no boss for 9 months and held the company together until a new boss arrived on the scene, who asked me to take minutes at the board meetings??? I mentioned of my hearing impairment and he took no notice, so struggled I did this for 6 months when I was told I was no longer needed for three reasons, 1. We were both out of the office at the same time. 2. The cost of travel to London (£40) 3. he was employing a minute taker that cost £200 (?) , that sounds like good financial planning, and finally 4. because of my hearing!!!! I have tried for the past 6 months to get the equipment I need sending repeated emails to get it and still I have not got the equipment.
In January of this year I was diagnosed with Fibro and kept my boss informed all the way along, now the above while not related to the Fibro is connected to the next part. Two weeks ago I was told I was being made redundant my job was no longer there, seeing as there are only 2 of us in the company I find that difficult to believe. The consequences are it sent the Fibro into over drive, I can't think straight, my short term memory is shot to pieces, and now have to go through a consultation period of lots of meetings! I'm at an all time low and want to bury my head in the sand and don't want to come out until it is all over...........I know I can't do this as I have a case for a tribunal for not supporting me in my work, I just don't know if I have the energy for it.
I must say though my GP has been great in just listening to me, I had to go to see another doctor within the surgery for some pain medications and all I got from him was that I was depressed and sent me home with paracetamol. But seeing my regular GP she listen and feels I have a case also, I went to an audiology appointment this week, she sat there and said your putting on a brave face but I can see you're in pain and gave me a hug, while it didn't take the pain away, it helped.
Sorry the above is long winded but with no one to talk to it helps me get things down in black and white, if you asked me today would I fight the case I would say a resounding NO, if I got the Fibro attack under control I would say MAYBE, if I didn't have Fibro I would say DEFINITELY! Fibro 1, Me 0.