Hi Suffolk, I think I must have missed something, but I'm not aware of you having to apologise for anything. I think you are having a rough time at the moment, as are others, in their lives, but you are allowed to say what you are going through, having read your previous post I think you are quite rightly feeling vulnerable at this rough time for you, be gentle on yourself and know that people here do care.
I hate upsetting people, especially when they've been so kind, and I thought I had. I then beat myself up about it, something I am very good at. All because of a stupid e-mail.
I can't see anything in your post that you need to apologise for either, so don't worry. If you're referring to you previous post, as you say, writing it down can help to get it out and so I hope it did stop you from spiralling downwards. You have a lot of thoughts going around and around...
A good friend of mine occasionally gets some pretty depressing emails from me (when I'm down and don't want to burden my partner anymore than I have to - she lovingly deals with enough). For me the email means it's out there, out of me and I know she'll respond in some way - either being supportive or trying to make me see the lighter side of things. She knows how to word things for me and my mood, if that makes sense.
On here you have a variety of people who will try to give you support, advice or even a different way to view things. Sometimes this might not "fit" your world (sorry can't find a better way to say this - I hope it's coming out ok). Take all you can in terms of support and comfort from these comments to make you feel better about things. If something doesn't quite "fit", perhaps take less notice of that comment, but feel some joy knowing that person took time to try to help in their own way.
Gee I hope this comes out ok. I know what I want to say, but fear it's not quite coming over particularly well. Really, just to say keep using the forum, get your feelings out and take what you can from the responses
Hope this makes sense, otherwise I'm gonna be needing to apologise
For the last few months I have felt really good about life again after years of depression, not helped by the Fibro. I haven't slid too far down but the thought of upsetting people does upset me! I will have to pay attention to my thoughts for a little while.
I went out to do some gardening to vent some of the anguish and promptly aggravated my hips and back which have been niggling for a couple of months now. So now I have to sit as moving is so sore. Proving what my son says - I'm old and decrepit!
I'm glad you are enjoying the poems, your words are quite poetic
"There are many people who
use this site who
have an amazing way
of using words.
The poems that are posted can
touch the heart in so many ways.
I don't have that ability I'm afraid,
I sincerely wish I did. "
And there is no need to say sorry for talking about how you feel, that is that this site is here for, to unload, to share and to sympathise. You have been through a lot of tragedy and rightly needed to share, thank you for choosing to share it with us. I hope it went alright with your mother-in-law.
I also felt a twinge in my stomach for you when you explained how the email had affected you. It may have done you a world of good telling us how you felt, and we are all here to listen, never be ashamed to pour your heart out, that is what the forum is here for, and you may have helped someone else to be able to do the same in the future.
I hope the day goes as well as you need it to go, and you both have a nice time together.
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