After a week of the most awful anxiety I've decided to cancel my motability car which I was picking up tomorrow. I've had one for the past 3 years but I'm having neighbour trouble and I think having a brand new car will just make things worse,I'm crippled by anxiety already. I've spoken to motability and I feel quite silly by leaving it to the last minute but the stress has built up. I haven't been able to eat or sleep. There may be a cancellation fee by the car dealer,I won't know until tomorrow when the car dealer calls me. I'm going to buy a cheap second hand car hopefully from them if they have something suitable. I just can't face the stress of my neighbours causing me more problems. It's not easy doing all this on your own when your ill as a lot of you will know. I just want a quiet life. When I ordered the car I was very poorly,my daughter had had an emergency op in hospital and I had rehomed one on my dogs all in the same week. Things have blown up with the neighbours since then.
Unfortunately throughout my life I have been on the receiving end of a lot of nasty people so I know how bad it can get,I think I'm just vulnerable as I can't cope with confrontation,it's lead me to be at the mercy of various abuse. My chronic anxiety doesn't help and I've not been able to get on top of it.