First FET - scared!

[pickle19]

Just got my period which means I can start meds for my first FET. I thought I'd be excited but I have got more and more terrified over this week... I know that once we start we have to live through the hope and disappointment cycle again whereas right now I've been enjoying the fact it's all been hypothetical. Not sure if that makes sense but for the last few weeks reality has been 'right now we have one great embryo in the freezer and all they have to do is pop it back in and I'll maybe get pregnant!' easy peasy, hard bit over etc. Whereas once we start we have to face ACTUAL reality of maybe not getting a nice lining, the embryo maybe not surviving the thaw, and of course, a very possible BFN. Can't I just stay in wonderland a bit longer?!

Anyhoo no one in our lives who knows what we're up to would understand, in fact I think they'd probably be bored of my negativity, but I thought you guys would 😍

Hope everyone has a lovely Sunday and huge good luck to those on their OTD 🤞🤞🤞🤞

[Deltasunshine]

Hi, I'm in exactly the same position. I have to phone this week to get a scan before starting drugs on the next period. It's been nice having two months off from the drugs and sort of tried to out it out my mind but now it's getting closer I'm feeling more anxious about it all. It's a fine line between wanting to be positive but also feeling like I need to protect myself by thinking about the possible negative outcomes. In my head, if I think the worst case scenario then anything else that happens positively will be a bonus?! But someone once said to me you can't ever truly be prepared for any of the outcomes emotionally.Anyway, wishing you lots of luck and just remember we need to be kind to ourselves. Xx

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi pickle. I'm sure the clinic will look after you fine. Make sure you take all your medication as prescribed and test on the day recommended by the clinic. Just wanted to wish you well and of courser for a positive result. Diane