Processing the end of the journey

[Hopeful28]

It’s been a long 9 years overall from staring to try for a baby until now. We recently decided to try for a second little miracle. I have low AMH.

Last time when we had our daughter we had two embryos that developed incorrect and badly fragmented they couldn’t grade them. To our shock we had our little girl who is now three.

Thought lots about trying again but had to save the money then with covid we finally managed to try again now.

We had three previous attempts, before my daughter, on the long protocol. We did get pregnant on our best ever 5BB embryo but unfortunately we miscarried. With my daughter they changed to the flare protocol and they stuck with that this time.

This time we only ended up with one fertilised embryo, from 2 eggs, that only made it to 3 cells by day 5. We never made it to transfer.

I keep saying I’m ok with it as knew the risks but I know if it wasn’t for the financial aspect I wouldn’t give up just yet.

Just had a call to arrange a review appointment this week but I know we just can’t keep doing it financially. Although we could probably afford it I think we need to concentrate our finances on the daughter we have now. Doesn’t help she keeps telling me how much she would love a real baby in our house and she’s is constantly wanting to play big sister and baby.

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi Hopeful. I think sometimes we have to look at what we have achieved, and give yourselves a huge pat on the back for your wonderful daughter. I feel if we only had some magic blutak to keep our little embryos in place, we would find the money! You have been through more than many ladies who have struggled, but sometimes that's the way things are, and there are no answers. Thinking of you. Diane