Some of you might have read a previous post from me between Christmas and New Year when we had our first ever BFP and had the privilege to see a foetal pole heart beat.
We have had years of trying for a child, 6 failed ICSI IVF rounds with a loss of 14 embryos and we decided to try the donor embryo route. We got our first BFP on 15Dec and our early scan looked fantastic on 28Dec.
The weekend before I noticed a tiny bit of pinkness in the evening so I decided to call the early pregnancy unit for a chat/advice and they invited me for a scan. So off we went not realising that are whole lives were about to change.
They told us that our little one had failed to thrive.
It has been a really tough week as the clinic in Spain insisted I carried on with all medication and have a repeat scan and bloods today.
So I am just back from living the nightmare again. Total confirmation that we have no heart beat and have lost our little one.
I am booked in for surgery this week so at least physically I can move forward.
We are of course devastated and what we thought was an amazing start to 2017 really is not.
The good news is that we did get a BFP and we did get implantation and we do have some frozen embryos if we want to go down that route. It was a miracle and a privilege to get as far as we did.
I just wanted to wish everyone all the best on their journeys.
If anyone has any advice on how they managed to cope with miscarriage and if any of you went on for a successful pregnancy I would be interested to hear your experiences and fears.
Trying very hard to remain positive.