Stark white negative test 8dp5dt

[SR90]

Feeling very miserable this morning, like nothing is going right.

This was our third round of ICSI and after 2 failed fertilisation rounds, we finally managed to get 3 to fertilise on our 3rd round. 2 didn’t make it past day 4 and the 3rd was not quite a blastocysts but heading in the right direction so I had that transferred.

I’m now 8 days past transfer and although my official date to test is Monday, (I tested early in the hope of giving my OH a birthday surprise), I’ve seen people getting faint positives from 4 days, but absolutely nothing showed this morning.

I’m not sure what to do next, I feel like it’s never going to happen! I know it’s only 3 rounds but 3 rounds of long protocol really takes it out of you, I know how badly I want to be a mum but this is torture. I just needed to vent a little, so thanks for listening. X

P.s- we are doing icsi due to male factor and long protocol as I have very slightly low Amh and follicle count for a 31 year old.

[Priyasharma]

Really sorry to listen that,I had 6 round of ICSI in last 6 yrs, 1st time i am pregnant with Beta HCG value of 1602 at day 19, but since yesterday I m having period like cramp and started spotting, I m very nervous too.. I can totally understand ur pain. Don't get disheartened. Just wait for few more days and go for Beta HCG test.

[SR90 in reply to Priyasharma]

Thank you lovely.

Wow 6 rounds, you fantastic lady! I hope everything works out for you, you definitely deserve it.

[Kbear83]

Hello SR90 sorry to hear about your Bfn,isn't it the worst feeling. I'm a day ahead of you and the same. How are you feeling right now? Any symptoms at all? Xx

[SR90 in reply to Kbear83]

I think I saw you got a faint test? Is it progressing?

I have a fair few symptoms BUT when you google them, it’s just progesterone. I’m constantly tired, falling asleep by 7.30/8pm, headaches, nausea occasionally. During the rest of the day, I feel perfectly fine. x

[Kbear83 in reply to SR90]

No nothing since, I think it was a dodgy test, gutting. I should've left the tests well alone. 1dp-5dp I felt something every day like cramping and tiredness, absolutely zilch on 6 and 7dp, nothing yesterday until 9pm and I had cramping that I thought af was going to start immediately, this morning I felt nothing, even my tummy felt flat - during af I'm so bloated. Felt queasy this morning eating breakfast.

My friend told me she had bfn at 9 days, a slight squinter at 10 days that her wife said she couldn't see, v v faint on 11 days and then it looked like a decent bfp on day 12. So we're not out.

But it doesn't stop it feeling like we are xx

[SR90 in reply to Kbear83]

Aw sorry Hun! But you’re right, I know we aren’t quite out just yet, definitely feels like it though doesn’t it!

I’m an emotional rollercoaster at the moment, work, life, ivf etc. You know when you just need a bit of good news 🤦🏻‍♀️ X

[Kbear83 in reply to SR90]

Absolutely, I really hope you get it so you can get off this IVF train. Let's see what the next couple days bring us. My test day is Friday 🙄xx

[SR90 in reply to Kbear83]

Not long to wait, anything could happen. I’ll keep everything crossed for you. X

[AuroraXen]

I'm sorry Lovely. It isn't over yet, your embryo might have implanted a bit late. It does happen. It's all so hard though. I completely empathise with you, it's very hard when your round results in nothing to transfer. And even if you do have am embryo to put back, having nothing to freeze is very hard as you know that 'trying again' means a whole new cycle, and all the cr&p that goes along with that. It's more bearable if you at least get lots of embryos from a fresh round - cost-wise, but also just in terms of emotional and physical stress. It really isn't fair and sadly lots of us just aren't lucky first time or even third time 😭 Try not o give up on this round just yet though: our bodies and our embies are different (espeically if it was a bit slow to develop) and Monday is a way away yet. See what happens and just try to plan a day at a time (I know it's easier said than done) xx

[SR90 in reply to AuroraXen]

I literally couldn’t have wrote that any better myself! Exactly the all of the points! The failed fertilisation and having nothing to transfer, the cost, the emotional rollercoaster, the medication, the time off work. Literally just everything 🙈

Thank you for your words, I will try and wait until Monday now. I’m not really in a rush to test now I expect it to be negative.

I’m just not sure what we can try next to help, or if it’s a case of doing the same thing and just hoping for the best. x

[Marisa32]

Sorry about that. I'm surprised they have you on long protocol. Low AMH ladies usually do much better on short protocol or natural/modified IVF.

[SR90 in reply to Marisa32]

It’s only ever so slightly low, more borderline. But I’ve seen people on different protocols react differently, I get the eggs and they mature as they should etc. Just not quite as many as some people would.

[MammaMia86]

Feel free to vent as much as you want!!! Who better than all of us to understand what you are feeling. We don't need to put ourselves in your shoes because we are in your shoes.

I really hope that your situation changes soon. I know the frustration of the long waits, I am starting first cycle after 4 years...