Fourth ICSI 7DPT & terrified

[Lucy1602]

Hi everyone, I’ve been on here a while now but this is my first post. I find it really reassuring hearing from others on the same journey. DH and I have had 4 rounds of ICSI. The 1st fresh transfer resulted in a BFN, we had 2 FET for our 2nd cycle which resulted in a BFP but I MC at 10 wks. Our 3rd FET BFN.

We have just had a fourth cycle abroad where we got 4 good quality embryos and I’ve had 2 transferred & 2 frozen. I’m 7DPT and have been feeling ok about it until yesterday when I started imagining another BFN. I know it’s important to stay positive but I’m really not sure how I’ll cope if we have yet another unsuccessful cycle after so much energy & finances invested. Is anyone else 7DPT and feeling the same?

[emu2016]

Hello Lucy, I imagine most ladies on here with a similar experience of BFN’s, cancelled cycles and miscarriages worry every single cycle that it won’t work. It’s natural. If we start imagining the worst we think we will be prepared for it. I don’t think that ever goes away. I guess because we know stressing isn’t good we have to occupy our minds in the best way we can during the two week wait. You’ve come so far... not long now until OTD. x

[Lucy1602 in reply to emu2016]

Thanks emu2016 - you’re right. There isn’t anyway you can prepare for the disappointment so trying to enjoy it and be hopefully makes more sense! Need to keep busy and stay positive

[emu2016 in reply to Lucy1602]

You might have already done this but I made a timetable for the days in my 2ww. Might be good to do this for what’s left. Putting in things to enjoy too! x

[Abbie40]

Hi Lucy, believe me I feel your pain!!! I’m now nearly 9 days post transfer and keep touching my boobs to see if they hurt and driving myself nuts testing every few days! I had a bfp on day 5 post transfer with a frer and tested again on Friday but will only feel reassured after the 2 blood tests as I’ve had a bfp 6 times before and the last 3 went from a nice high number to a chemical pregnancy just have to keep busy and try as hard as it is to stay positive! I too have had many cycles, 2 here, 3 in Spain and just back from Washington for my current one. Needless to say the emotional and financial drain but will be worth it!! X

[Lucy1602 in reply to Abbie40]

Thanks Abbie. Every morning I wake up and think this is another day closer. I had cramping yesterday and was tempted to test last night but resisted and am holding off til Friday. What symptoms are you experiencing now? It’s so tough but I suppose if dh and I have survived two failed and mc we should be able to survive again. Just really hope this is our time at last.

[Abbie40 in reply to Lucy1602]

Hi Lucy, i’m Getting ready now to have my hcg blood test and absolutely terrified ( last 3 pregnancies have been chemicals) My boobs didn’t ache at all yesterday and I was so depressed but a bit of tenderness came back late last night. Don’t really have any other symptoms (this is my 7th pregnancy and each time it’s been different so don’t worry about comparing symptoms too much as everyone is different and so is every pregnancy! Such a stressful time for us but stay strong, positive and not long now xxx

[Lucy1602 in reply to Abbie40]

Thanks for your reply Abbie. I’m sorry you’ve had some a hard time with chemical pregnancies. It’s so stressful and I’m finding it difficult to carry on as usual in work. It’s even reassuring to hear others going through it are feeling depressed as sometimes I feel I need to shake myself and be thankful for what I have but thanks. All the best for your blood test xx

[Abbie40 in reply to Lucy1602]

Forgot to say that cramping is a good sign! I’ve never had it but my friends and sister have had it with each of their 2 pregnancies!!

[Autumnmoon]

Hoping the days go quickly and you get great news at the end of your wait x

[Lucy1602 in reply to Autumnmoon]

Thank you Autumnmoon. A long and relentless process but still feeling hopeful