Chemical pregnancy :(

[JammPot]

Just wanted somewhere to spill my emotions really, with those that may understand.

This was our first ivf round and I started off so positive which was unlike me as I am an over thinker (also not googling) and taking it all as it came. I’m scared of needles so I did so well, everything was going ‘perfectly’ good amount of eggs, perfect lining, feeling ok within myself. I had one embryo transfer, and test day was Sunday (I did 4 tests and all were positive).

Monday night I took a turn, awful cramps in my back and lower stomach. Bleeding was getting a little heavier (not majorly) but in and out of red, overall groggy feeling. My hcg blood test was yday and I just knew I wasn’t going to receive any good news (you know when you just know your body, I felt something had changed). It came back 31.9 when really they should be seeing 200+ 💔. I have been so spaced out since, our journey is unexplained, we have been ttc for just over 3 years. I know our journey isn’t over and we know we have 2 frozen embryos to work with. But it all is so much to digest. This is the first time we have ever experienced a positive and I just feel it was ripped away from us 😔

Dealing with the rollercoaster above and how my body now feels since is just such a horrible combination. Sorry I know it’s long, but I felt I just needed to release, especially as not many knew about our IVF!

🙏🏽 Keeping faith for our future and what it may bring! ❤️

[Purpledoggy]

I am so sorry to hear this, just when you think you are in a good place it is so unfair to have it snatched away from you. Sending you many hugs xx

[JammPot in reply to Purpledoggy]

Thank you so much ❤️

[BelfastGirl83]

I had a chemical last week too. Mine was a natural pregnancy and while I am upset, I still didn’t have as much invested in it as you going through treatment so I can imagine it feels doubly hard. You experience a very brief period of relief and optimism only to have it snatched from you. Hugs to you. Give yourself time before you get back on the saddle xx

[JammPot in reply to BelfastGirl83]

So sorry to hear that you have experienced the same, it really is such an unexplainable feeling. The clinic want me to do another urine test on Tuesday, (which I will do out of protocol) but I feel it will just bring added hurt to the situation. Sending you lots of positive thoughts xx

[Goose12345]

I had a chemical pregnancy confirmed last week as well. It's just horrible! This was our second round of IVF and couldn't quite believe the positive test result - also did it 4 times. A week later took another and it was negative. I'd had some light bleeding and I think the cyclogest had retained the rest. Now changing my diet to see if that helps as assume it is egg quality!

[JammPot in reply to Goose12345]

I’m really sorry to hear that, sending big hugs! What in particular will you change with your diet? I find that so hard as personally I feel mine is quite balanced, I enjoy my junk food etc but also a mix of veg and meats too. Also taking vitamins. I had a call today to start a frozen transfer in a couple of months, now the debate of what my mind and body wants to do ❤️ A

Take care of yourself!