Feeling heartbroken. The call from the hospital was what I expected, but it doesn’t hurt any less. My HCG levels have dropped to 7, and I have to go back for another blood test in a week. It’s crazy I was on such a high over the last few days. Now I feel broken. I know in time I’ll feel better. But this has got to be the worst I’ve felt throughout this whole journey. It was the first time I got a BFP, and maybe I jumped ahead of myself.
Thank for all the kind messages. They’ve really helped me. I think you’re all amazing and truly an inspiration 😘
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Awwwh gem I’m gutted for you I really am .Big hugs and kisses to you darling I’m always here for a chat my darling xxxxx go through the emotions and then refocus on where you go next .Im here for ya your certainly not alone message me anytime xxxx
I'm so sorry to hear your news! We had this last time although my levels were higher but then started dropping. The thing that keeps me going is I have loads of BFNs but now had a couple of BFPs so which can only be a good thing. It gave me some reassurance that it can happen! Lots of love & hugs, it really is such a crappy feeling!!xxx
Oh honey I’m so so sorry to read this. When it happened to me I felt completely shattered, remember it vividly. It was New Year’s Day 5 years ago and my first positive too. It’s ok to feel pants, curl up under the duvet, cry, watch a terrible film. Be kind to you. Remember this isn’t the end of your journey. Massive massive virtual hugs. Please keep talking to people even if u feel u r saying the same thing over and over xxx
Don’t put any pressure on yourself - there’s no right or wrong amount of time to feel what u need to feel after this. I felt really desperately down for a few weeks and cried what felt like a river! But then I was keen to get going and try again. Do what feels right for you xxxxx
Aww geez this is just shit. I had a natural chemical a few years ago after a mmc and it was hard but it was my most recent chemical in August after my first IVF pgs round that hit me harder than anything else. I just figured it would work because it was pgs tested. I let myself get excited and the fall was devastating. It did take me a good month of grieving before I could think about getting back on the saddle as it were but I was determined to find out why. Like I've said in my previous message to you, don't give up, there is still plenty for you to do and once you find the key you will have your bfp. Unfortunately these losses do tarnish us and the next pregnancy will likely have you feeling anxious and too scared to get your hopes up (it has me anyhow) and it's not fair that we can't relax and enjoy seeing the pregnancy line without any anxiety like others. You will get there. Take some time to digest it all, cry, grieve, Journal, talk to someone, but most of all be kind to yourself. You are strong. 💛
I’m so sorry to hear this Gem. Losing a BFP is just horrible and heartbreaking. I’ve been there, it will take time but you will come through this. Take care of yourself, sending lots of love and hugs xx
So sorry to hear this , I am just waiting now for mine too but I don't think I have any hope , but I am going again , and u must keep trying if you can because one day we will be mums , this is my sixth go when I try again , nothing takes the pain away though I know but I am trying to think what we can do next time , just I have run out of money at the minute that's the biggest worry xxxxx
I am so sorry! I jut went through this two weeks ago.
First transfer in July ended in miscarriage in 9th week
Did a second transfer end of November and was pregnant but my clinic wasn’t happy with my hcg levels (207 on day 12) - I thought that wasn’t too bad but two days later it went to 308 then dropped to 280 and then up and down - and I started to bleed and back to 0.
The torture of hoping for it to double and rise along with the feeling of being “robbed” - I can’t explain the pain and I know it really hurts! I am so so so sorry that you are going through this.
Life just seems unfair - everyone says keep having faith and try again but mourn if you need to.
I am so sorry again hon. The pain does get better.. big big hugs
I’m so sorry for your loss, I had one a few years ago it’s so crap when it’s such a wanted pregnancy it was the hardest thing we went through in our journey. It’s impossible not to get carried away when you’ve wanted it for so long. ☹️Our consultant told us we were just very unlucky & that because we lost that pregnancy didn’t mean we would the next one & it was positive that we managed to conceive ( didn’t feel it at the time) but he was right & a year later ( because of 2 more laps for my endo) we conceived & had our 7 month old daughter. I hope you have plenty of support around you. Take care of yourself xxx
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Its disappointing isn't it when you have set your heart on something and get your hopes up only to have it result in nothing!
Oh I’m so sorry. My first round was a chemical pregnancy too. It’s shit because you see the positive and your mind starts running away with itself. It’ll get easier with time. Sending you love xx
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